Bye bye 2010♥

Wow..time flies~Today is 31st December 2010, the very last day for 2010.
The day after today it's probably will be the brand new year 2011 for all of us.
How are you guys going to celebrate for tonight?Countdown with ur lover, friends, family or just staying at home countdown with tv program as me which there is no lover, no friends, no family stay beside...

2010 was a challenging year for me. I've had go through lotsa ups and down...I had benefited greatly from those ups and down...I felt that I grew up and be more mature in everything...How about you?Now matter what, 2010 is going to an END, so let us erase the past and greet the arrival of the Year 2011!

For the brand New Year 2011, I've get myself the Mission and Target of the Year 2011 and I hope I can achieve it! New Life, New Chapter and New Beginning!

I wish that I can slim down according to my target weight!
I wish that I can enhance my communication skills through my internship in Hilton Hotel!
I wish that I can be a smart person after my internship!
I wish that I can be a brave person to face those difficulties!
I wish that I can totally change to the new one ME!
I want to live and spend my life to the fullest in 2011!

I hope that I can successfully realize all my Wishes in 2011!!!

Lastly, let us together throw away all the bad luck and unpleasant things to prepare for the arrival of the Year 2011!

Happy New Year in advance!
2011 is coming, Lets ENJOY for the very last day in 2010 with no REGRET!!!(:
♥

Laziness~Finally a long updated!

Fiuh~~~blow blow and wave wave~~~It's time to get my blognest clean!No doubt it must have been full of DUST here!Grrr... :(
To be truthful here, this holiday was a meaningless to me as I was like a lazy bud that always stayed at home and too lazy to bother about anything. Everyday life have been repeating the same thing.Apart from eat,sleep,watch tv and it will be probably online-ing...Until the day EVE of Christmas which is on 24th, I just began to get my life activated!haha. To welcoming and greeting the birth of baby Jesus Christ!
Guess wat?!It was really a sea of people to describe on that night.Undeniably this scenario is hard to be seen in the daily mass.Most Catholics are usually only come for the occasion mass and seldom involved themselves for the every Sunday or sunset mass. Hopeless-ing
After mass ended, it was cloudburst in a sudden...I wondered whether it is Mother Mary felt the joy of our praise of Jesus Christ is coming!Yeah!I've been so believe on it!
I felt so sorry on that night as I was destroyed the happy atmosphere and it should be a joyful night!But all had been blew by my bad temper!Ya, I argued with my parents!==So bad me!!:[
I always failed in control my temper and always burst out the discontent and resentment of mine!As the chinese saying goes:"家家有本难念的经，Every family has its cupboard."So you should know my feelings.
25th morning, I got up early than usual for the early X'mas mass. After get myself prepared, I waited my biao jie to pick me up to the church with my both panda eyes as I was not enough sleep and still in sleeping mode.sigh~There was also fulled of Catholics were actively came for the X'mas mass as welcome the arrival of Jesus Christ!

After mass, we were heading for the breakfast at my mum shop.I ordered fried bee hun, granny and my biao jie ordered mee goreng soup and my aunt ordered kampua mee.Mom cooked is always the BEST!XD

After breakfast, we went for shopping to grab some formal clothes and black shoe for my coming internship..sigh~Cashless-ing again!Trouble!When we shopped in a halfway, one of my aunt called my biao jie said that they were reached in bintangor and want to meet up.We met up in one of the boutique.Unexpectedly, cloudburst in a sudden again!The weather was fooling us around this lately!Hence, we continued our shopping in that boutique~Which I also helped my cousin chose a piece of nice nice dress that she had never challenged before. I was happy that she like it and bought it at last!hehe...And we also helped my aunt chose a piece a dress which is in hanai pictures. Originally she was also reluctant to buy this dress as she never tried this style before...but later after me and my biao jie kept encouraged her to buy then she just accept this new transformation.funny enough^^I was also fancy a piece of formal shirt, it looked well, but just a little fit...and I was determined will get started my weight loss BIG battle after back to Kuching as I can't fit in all my nice clothes!!!Grrr..:(

After shopping, we all heading to my dad shop to have a drink. After drink, we went to my mum shop again for lunch time. My stomach was still fulled, so I just ate some vege and 100plus.

After lunch, we were heading to my aunt house to have a rest and we were chit chating togather for several hours.It was a grateful moments.Noon time, we off to St. Augustine primary school to see my little cousin rehearsal his martial arts for the 26th youth night concert.Tired...we spent our several hours there...

Yeah, as usual my mum was the one who prepared for the dinner to welcome my aunt them.My mum will never miss the chance to show her homecook skill.haha..xD The night was GREAT and the dinner was delicious!We had a great moments on that night!(:

That night, we also payed a visit to one of my young aunt house.We chit chatting again!

And that night which touched me the most was my granny.She gave me a present! It was a very precious gift to me and also for all her grandchild...Mum said it was a souvenir from my granny.I get what she meant...I felt like teardrop...Granny,I still remember the time you holding my hand across the street when I was still a little gal and now we exchange the character which is my turn to carry u through each section of the road.

This only a fraction of the years, why flies so fast?! I can't imagine the day without u in this WORLD!:[

Lastly, Happy belated X'mas to u all and welcoming the brand new year 2011!

Gambateh, Pauline cECILIA

透视的

天啊！都几点了我还不跟周公相会。。。
原因是。。。
《我不想睡！》
因为final临近了，想尽全力把星期一要考的科目的重点key in 进我这怠慢的脑袋！
可是不见得可以达到我要的目标。。。算了啦。。。就算key in 一部分也不嫌少！
嗯。。。
人啊。。。活得简单，快乐就好！
别去在意他人对你的看法，否则你一辈子活得也不快乐！
人人都有优缺点，而我的缺点是什么呢？
也许每个人都清楚吧！
我是透视的，所以一眼望去，谁会看不透呢？
呵呵。。。
我试着不去介意，这样才会看到快乐的自己！
做个开朗的女孩子吧！(:
好啦！
不写了！
本人继续温书去！tata! (:

I'm Already There♥

The Best Band EVER-WESTLIFE
[I'm Already There] by Westlife♥

He called her on the road
From a lonely cold hotel room
Just to hear her say I love you one more time
But when he heard the sound
Of the kids laughing in the background
He had to wipe away a tear from his eye
A little voice came on the phone
Said daddy when you coming home
He said the first thing that came to his mind

Im already there
Take a look around
Im the sunshine in your hair
Im the shadow on the ground
Im the whisper in the wind
Im your imaginary friend
And I know Im in your prayers
Oh Im already there

She got back on the phone
Said I really miss you darling
Dont worry about the kids theyll be alright
Wish I was in your arms
Lying right there beside you
But I know that Ill be in your dreams tonight
And Ill gently kiss your lips
Touch you with my fingertips
So turn out the light and close your eyes

Im already there
Dont make a sound
Im the beat in your heart
Im the moonlight shining down
Im the whisper in the wind
And Ill be there until the end
Can you feel the love that we share
Oh Im already there

We may be a thousand miles apart
But Ill be with you wherever you are

Im already there
Take a look around
Im the sunshine in your hair
Im the shadow on the ground
Im the whisper in the wind
And Ill be there until the end
Can you feel the love that we share
Oh Im already there
Oh Im already
There

To be truthful, I kept listening to this song repeatedly tonight!Each word each line are just so meaningful. Yay, it's touched!!! The Best Band EVER!!! I love WESTLIFE!

Pictures talk to U ♥

Yayyy...this was the receipt that I've been received from Timberland specialist that cost me RM111!!! And I have to visit tat PLACE again in this coming Thursday or Friday!What the tuuuuuuu!!!!Have to nag my dad to bank in $$$ again!!!
Dad, I also don't want to be..but how?What we can blame only the "Weather''!This weather is killing ppl yet made the matter worse that I'm staying in non-aircond room!It's tiring to stay in such hot as sauna room!I want to move out!!!AS soon AS possible!haiz... Between, dad...u have to believe in me that I am a saving daughter...I rarely shop for the clothes and girly stuffs in this semester! I just shop for the necessity stuffs only..I rarely go for entertainment such as movies, hang out, etc...And usually just have a meal for one day. This is the way that I used to save my $$$! But I wonder how my money run out every time...sigh~~~

This is the ear drop that cost me RM11!

It's called SOLUWAX which is for softening ur earwax!
Have to drop it into my both ears daily with 3 drops each time.

See how serious of my left ear!
It's itchy and pain!
:C

Okay!That's all for this post!

P/S: It's been raining just now! *Grin*♥

Pauline cECILIA is going to recover soonest!(:♥

Earache

Am back to get you guys an updated!
Guess wat...I had been sick few days ago...I wonder how my health is getting worse day by day!Due to the weather been too hot...my left ear began to pain! Yesterday morning, my uncle and aunt brought me to ear specialist at timberland. I can only say, it was SO EXPENSIVE! The visitation just took me within 5 minutes. It cost me RM111! Doctor consultation cost RM30, Ear scoop cost RM40, Ear toilet cost RM30 and follow by the Eardrop cost RM11! Totally cost me RM111!What a nice DIGIT! *Cashless-inG* Make the matter worse, doctor Wong was outstation, hence I was consult by an Indian doctor who was sent from the central hospital. He went: Too much waste inside ur ear, plus ur ear hole is too small, it's hard to take it out, and can't check what's the problem..
So...he gave me an eardrop...after a week need to return back again to check. And that time probably will be doctor Wong consult me!
Undeniably, today I was feeling okay with my ear! Though still can't clearly hear what ppl talking about but at least it's reduce the pain.

Well....I was handed up my resume to Nadia yesterday noon and I was absent for the marketing class as well. I gave the sick leave to ''da jie'' to help me give to Mr.Bernard. Cos I had absent once for his class. I don't want to receive any *Love letter* from head!
I had applied Hilton for my industrial training as I have no idea at all where should I go for! And I've been so sure that my dad will never allowed me to having my training in West Malaysia!Hence, there is the only choice ''Kuching''! Yayy....I'm waiting for daddy to send me the car for me convenience during my training periods.Sighhhhhhhh~~~Gonna step into society soonest...To be honest, I haven't get my mind prepared yet. *Nervous* Hopefully everything goes well! My ever 1st time!

Last nite I was stayed alone at my aunt house as they all gone to the wushu training center. I feel boredom to go there as I have nothing to do yet just stand there day dreaming only. Why not just stay at home and watch tv program? By the same time, I've been received a message from ah hui.
Here comes to the conversation:
ah hui:fast get prepared, kah jong will come to pick u guys up later!
I frozen at the moment when I seeing this message! I don't really getting wat she meant.
me:go where?I am nt in hostel.
ah hui:Elisa din tell u about tonite programs?We are going to eat dinner and watch movie.
me:She din tel me. I stil at my aunt house.
ah hui:Nvm...
Haiz....So...I just watching tv for the whole lonely nite while waiting my aunt them come back..
10pm something...finally my aunt them came back!

Don't know why...I just wanted to mention it here before I end this post.
I know it badly that I shouldn't be and never ever be mention it again!!!And it is non of my business and no point for me to mention about it anymore! Well...I was finally saw his Family portrait[his dad and mum and his brother and he himself]. What a lovely family portrait! This is how I used to want to see his ''family portrait'' before...but he never shown me before. Alright, at least I've seen this today in his fb.

Just now read an article that shared from my friends in fb. The title is "黑人和范范的十年♥'' This article made people envy toward their loves. I do envy! She is really lucky to have him as her boyfriend. And yet he is also lucky to have her as his girlfriend. Wish them Forever LOVE! *Envy*
When is my turn?
LOL...Don't too rush..and never rush!!!This is wat I always reminding myself!

Okay! Quite a long post tonight! Do enjoy my updated ya!

Stay tune readers!
Tata!
♥hugs♥

Sick...

This morning, woke up by 8.30am. Actually still have plenty of time for me to sleep due to the marketing class is at 12pm. Nevertheless, I didn't continue my precious sleeping time. After had my teethbrush and facewash, took out the FnB2 notes and simply read through... Well, I had an apple for my breakfast as I don't feel hungry at all yet no appetite to eat everything. In fact, I was so SICK!!!Body heat was attacking me once again. It was suffering...Just imagine that ur whole body was feeling hot but the hot can't even make you sweating..The heat kept inside the body day by day...How's the feeling? No ones will know the feeling that I felt. Due to this sickness, it caused me lost my appetite to eat everything. I don't feel starving at all. Yesterday, I just had a glass of milk with some cornflakes until nite time I had a bowl of mee goreng soup. Until today, I don't dare to have any snack yet I still desire to have a little sometimes. *CONTROL*

Besides, I had a surfing for some nice blogskin as I plan to get my blog a new looking. Gonna say bye bye to Pinky SKIN!

Will get you updated soon~

Hugs~

♥

Horrible semester

Hello worlds!!!Sorry for the hibernating!!!It's been ages I didn't sign in here...Lazy?I admit! But beside this, there is also mine personality problem...I'm kinda lost my spirit to do everything in this semester. I've had a horrible days in this semester...So yeah, everytime I had failed to get u guys an updated here. Feel like going to change my blog skin to dark color...Obviously light color is not suit me, coz it just make me don't have an intention to update my blog with the KNS moods everytime!

I felt EMPTY somehow!!!
Coz of empty, it once again ur face lingering in my mind! *Erase!Erase! and Erase!!!Go AWAY!!!*
As ah hui said that I need someone who can be able to protect me!
But who wil be the one?
When will he be appearing in front of me?
................................................................
There is no ANSWER!
I'm just be waiting...

not much to say yet lazy to ...
so...Guys, I am going to end this post here...
Tata...

Pauline cECILIA is back to EMO status!

432-惜缘♥

已好久没有在这留下我的足迹了。原因很多。。。这个学期说真的，不是很好过。。。心情常常失控。我不是专业人士，所以有时候就在失控的情况下崩溃了。我的头脑每天都在做工。。。连睡觉也不放过。。。真的不明白我的脑袋是什么制成的。
这次最让我崩溃的莫过于我的身体状况。当我晚上哭着睡不着的时候，谁在我身边照顾我，安慰我，陪着我。。。谢谢你，小妹。如果不是你，也许我就失眠了好几个夜晚。
我们的相遇是种缘。
所以一定要珍惜哦！
时间消逝得快，和你在432相处了5个月，感情就这么升华了。还记得当初ah hui也和我们在同个房间，我们三人就如好姐妹般一起生活。后来ah hui 搬去pc，这里就只剩下我们俩人。所以往后的日子就变成俩人了。
432房有很多我们一起画下的回忆。记得吗？我们一起追着看survivor，一起去aunty mary 用餐，一起煮泡面。。。考试要到时，就一起拼命啃书。。。想起来真的好多好多值得去回忆的。
所以，我们一定要珍惜这份难得的缘。
考试加油！！！♥

Jesus

Dear Lord Jesus,

I know that I am a sinner and need Your forgiveness. I believe that You died on the cross for my sins and rose from the grave to give me life. I know You are the only way to God. So now I want to quit disobeying You and start living for You. Please forgive me, change my life and show me how to know You. In Jesus' name. Amen.

Obviously EMOTIONAL gal

It's been ages that I didn't leave my footprint here. All I can blame is only my LOVELY maxis broadband!!!!!!!It has been ruined my mood for 3 weeks holidays. It has never failed to spoil my mood whenever I was trying to access any website. By the same time, I really got the feel to throw it as far as possible! But it's IMPOSSIBLE for sure! In fact, I've got the feel of regret to change the Celcom broadband to Maxis broadband. But then also have to thanks to it coz only that I just can spent more time with my family instead of doing surfing with the smooth line there. Well, it can't be fulfilled my desires to access any website doesn't mean that I didn't spent my holidays to the fullest! I did! It's always worth to cherish and appreciate every single moments with my family. Happy hours always never last long. This is so-called REALITY!

In these 3 weeks neither too long nor too short holidays, it had been happened so many things. Honestly, I don't feel like going back to Kuching as I "bu she de'' every single things here, especially my family. I realized that I started to think much than before since I was getting more and more mature. I don't want to be mature! I don't want to grow up! I don't want both of them is not because of I scare to grow older. It's just because of the FEELING! The FEELING of thinking! Thinking always caused me INSOMNIA! I always teardrop in the midnight time while everyone were entered their own dreamland. U may say I was such an EMOTIONAL gal... Obviously, I am YES! I admitted I am an EMOTIONAL gal since the day I was being brought into this WORLD from my parents. It can't be avoided as the feeling came naturally. In fact, my mama also an emotional women, as the chinese saying goes:"有其母必有其女."

Beside of my family, I am going to mention another important women in my life. She is my LOVELY grandny. Since I was 5 years old, Grandny take over the responsibility from my parents and brought me walked to Methodist Kindergarden every weekdays without any complaints. My parents deserve to be forgiven as they were busying for their business. Therefore, those remembrance with grandny is still analyzed clear. She will hold my hand tightly before we reached the school coz She deeply afraid that I will run toward the road suddenly... She will accompany me until the bell rang... I can felt her LOVEs and CAREs ...I'd like to Thanks my grandny for her lotsa LOVEs and CAREs...
Time flies...
Now I am not a little gal but I was an officially 20 years old gal. Is the time to change the role...
What I would like to say is :"Grandny, I am not a good granddaughter and not as clever as ur other grandchildren but my LOVE toward u is never least than them. Grandny, I will held ur hand as how tight as u hold me when I was still a little gal. Though I seldom stay beside with you but I never forgotten u yet put u in my heart as always. I LOVE u FOREVER!"

U has been sick for long time yet this sickness can't be able to be cured...I was so sick whenever seeing u suffered but still couldn't do anything. I just will asking u whether u were feeling comfort or suffer.
You were officially 83years old since last Sunday. We had gathered together to celebrate ur BIG DAY and made the memorable one. Though it was just a simple birthday dinner but it's worth to let u knew that u had bunch of good and nice sons, daughters, grandchild....I'm sure that u had the feeling of happiness that u had OURS as ur part of LIFE. We have been engraved in ur HEART for sure!

Okayyy, no photo to be showed in this post.
That's all reader!

Tata!!!
LOVE PaulinecECILIA♥

The Fourth Kind [Isn't real story behind?]

Just finished watching the movie "The Fourth Kind" which is directed by Olatunde Osunsanmi, a 32-year-old Nigerian who got his master's in fine arts degree from Chapman's Dodge College of Film and Media Arts. That's him conducting the interview in the film.
It wasn't as horror as Kah Jong said. I watched it with Si hui and Stanley who is my new roomate.(:
Well guys, for me, it seems indeed that nothing in this movie was real....but it make me Curious toward this movie! Because there is the real footage all over the movie. Believe it or not it is just depends on ur own! ((: Can't be deny the fact it's a great movie! It allows debate on this topic, which gets people to talk about it in the first place.
After this movie, I tried to tour Googles and key in "Dr Tyler"and all I had been found was all information on the movie "The Fourth Kind". And I found that there is majority of the people don't believe this was a really story and just a MOVIE yet dropped lot of insulted comments. Anyway, time will tell the real truth. Only today we have video cameras to take footage. It's happening they won't be able to deny it forever.hahaha..xD

P/S: Showing real footage in the movie is one of the part of the movie to make those movie Success, don't u agree?((:

Sharing (: ♥

Hello people here!

Finally it's all done!
You may ask what has been done by me?
Aha!!!!!!
Guess wat!???
I just finished my presentation last few hours before I'm getting into my secret page here.
Honestly, it was neither good nor bad for my presentation yet I never to expect to get high marks in this presentation.
Anyway, it's done!;P
Yayy...
I'm happy in this moment onward!
So, I'm here to get you guys updated!
In this post,
I would like to share you guys some of my sTuFfS...

NARUKO so-called 牛薾 Facial Products!♥
Got them from online buying. Cost me RM290 inclusive postage fees^^
The price were so reasonable as you can see how many stuff I had been gotten from the picture.
Hehe...
You may respond:"Gosh, so many!!!!"
Undeniably, yayyy...it's so many for me as well!
Just imagine that you need to apply them on your FAce everyday!
Especially morning and night time.


Here comes to the NARUKO SPA Massage Towel
I haven't using this yet!^^Cute anyway!hahaha..xD


Facial SPA Massage Cotton Pads.
These facial massage cotton pads are super soft and absorbent, which don't shed or tear and are lint free. They are not only suitable for removing make-up and cosmetics, but also are ideal for massaging your skin with the lotion or moisturizer. Skin is gently exfoliated after for maximum absorption of following skincare products. Manufactured by a unique method allows these cotton pads to be used as facial masks.
The best COTTON ever to use!
Anything just tour this link
www.naruko.com.tw
(:

Tada!!!
Mix-sTYLE stereo headphone!
So damn COoL!
I have been waited to get it since last semester break!
Finally I got it yesterday!
HAHA![Happy-ing](:

This headphone offers good feeling with vogue and pleasure to use!
Likeyyy...♥ (:

"Letter support" from my sis"Si hui"
I was so down yet cried out infront my lappie when I was thinking for ideas and information for my Presentation slides!
Thanks to little cutie-Si Hui for the sweet letter
yet borrowing me this Stone which has been engraved a word "Strength"on it.
It's really touched when I received both Letter and Stone!
My tears was almost rolling out from my sorrowful eyes.
Thanks again Si hui! Muacks!(:

Here comes to the novel that I bought from Bintulu last semester break.
Mummy bought me these both novels which is written by Cecilia Ahern-my Favorite Writer ever!
But I haven't touched both novels yet since the semester starts!
The reason is "BUSY yet NO TIME"
I wondered when I can just start my reading time?!
Though assignment was done, but tough life has just started!
FINAL is come to knock my door to get me reminded the war of EXAM is around the corner!
So, I need to get a well-prepared for the FINAL instead of reading NOVELS!
Oops, tomorrow gonna be a busy day though~
Hilton class in the early 9am til 1pm and after Hilton class we gonna lepak at INTIMA Office as it has an interview for the new INTIMA Committee which is at 4pm-6pm!
So, I have to prepare lotsa question in order to ask for the coming candidates tomorrow!
Nahhh...Why LIFE gets so tough for this semester?!
HATES!
Well, it's raining now! I am going to end this post and off to bath!
Guess wat???!!!
I gonna watch horror movies through TuDou with my little sis-si hui tonight!
Haha!
Train my braveness!haha...XD
Toodles!
LOVE

Thanks ah hui

这张照片,还记得吧!
在7eleven 外等inti bus 时拍的.
semester2,
在hilton上front office的课.
回忆很多.
随着时间,
我们变了不少.

还有,

谢谢你,阿慧!
只有你摸透我的内心世界.
希望我可以勇敢跨越所有的挫折!

Dedicated to David (; ♥

June 25th 1987,

a new born baby boy was brought into this world on a piece of land called Malaysia!
He's a precious gift from GOD.
He is a boy called David Hoo (This picture has been cropped from one of the family picture as I don't have his personal picture.hehe^^)
♥

Today, his sister, Pauline cECILIA that ME wants to greet him a very BLAST happy 27 Birthday!

I had been reminded by daddy about ur birthday after I finished my test2 of F&B1 in Hilton...As I was busy on my studies till I not even remembered that today is ur BIG DAY.hehe^^

Daddy sent me a message:"Today is ur brother's birthday, remember send him a greeting message ya." The message is meaningfull though it was just a short message from him...I felt so touched at the moment. WHY? Through the message, u can feel that how much daddy's cares and LOVES...♥

Anyway,
Happy Birthday Ah Kor
Wish u have a blast,
all ur wish come true,
Forever Love with ur gal gal♥,
Stay healthy as always
and GOD bless ahead YOU!(;


Tonight gonna be a GOOD NIGHT for u!
I am sure that mummy will give u a table of delicious homecook!^^
And daddy said that ur gal gal will come over to celebrate with u as well right?
Have a blessed night ya!

Once again, Happy Birthday, my dear ah kor!LOVE u always (;

Assignment is fooling me around!!!!!!X(

Awwww...Readers!!!Tell me how to SURVIVE in such Condition!!!!
These few days I was so sick yet hopeless with my Communication level 4's Assignment!
The Question"Acquiring more than one language is crucial to work in Hotel Industry."
Actually I choose this question just because of I thought this is the most easier question among all the questions that had been listed down by her.
In fact..........it was WRONG!
When I asked others to give some opinion or ideas regarding this question, their 1st EXPRESSION was just:"Oops!Wat assignment lai de? So hard geh?!"
Gosh, I froze at the moment...

Well, the assignment is still in progressing...
My feeling toward this ASSIGNMENT:
.&*%#$@^&*^@$@&*

Test 2 for F&B Management1 will be on this coming Friday.

20 MCQ and 4 Practical Question!
LOLx...Hopefully everything proceeds as smooth as it can la....GOD BLESS.^^
Just now chatting with one of my senior through MSN. Not for other stuff, just for Assignment stuffs!
He is now having his industrial training in Penang.
Yayyy...I succeeded to get some information from him about the assignment.
He is such a talent student.
I am wondering...is it I am kind of easy to be read PERSON? Or I am just never hide my feelings?
Why I say so?
Beside my best friend and family...
He READ a part of mine.
Yayyy...he read me. I m a gal that is seriously lack of CONFIDENT!
I always have a mindset that I will never ever be as SUCCESSFUL as others.
I'm just an ordinary gal with ordinary mind yet nt a talent gal among all the friends.
I told him that for him sure can handle, for me sure die kiii (Study stuff).
He replied me: That's because you look down on urself.
And he sent me 2 quotes:"You can do it if you try - by Donald Trump
:"No matter what you do, always claim victory - by Donald Trump
Both quotes made me feel comfort at the moment.
Lack of CONFIDENT=INFERIORITY
I have always wearing on both of them...
Pauline Cecilia is as Fragile as Egg
Don't try to pinch her heart as it would be instantly broken.
She needs Caring!
She needs Comfort!
She needs Confident!
She needs Advice!
She needs LOVE!
She needs Hugs!
She needs Friends!
She needs whatever She wants!!!

She hates being Alone!
She hates Silent!
She hates Fat!
She hates feeling of Full!
She hates being dump!
She hates the feeling of Jealous!
She hates whatever she don't like!

The End of this POST!

Off to Revision for my F&B1.

Short Updated(Guess WHAT!?Pauline is getting STRESS)

Sky
This scene had been taken in Sematan beach last month if I'm not mistaken.

I love SKY. Don't you?

It's been awhile since I last blogged.
As u can see that my blogskin had been changed from dark emo theme to pinky strawberry theme.
What happened toward me?
Nothing happened.
Just because of I am so in LOVE with STRAWBERRY, so this come to the RESULT.
Actually I don't feel wanna to get my blog updated as I was lot of works need to go through.
But I was nagging by Si hui to at least leave some words or pictures here to not let the dust stick on my blog.
She is right, so I am here to get u guys updated.
I was just so stressed about all the stuffs.
I admit that I am kind of very emotional gal.
Happy in second, sad in another second.
Cheers up PAULINE!
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Before get into my blogging page here, I noticed that ah hui has been activated her blog last few days.
Good Job!
Keep it up ya my dear!
I will be punctual to c ur every updated post as always.
So, don't get me disappointed ya.
Before end this post,
I would like to wish my dad"Happy Father's Day".
Though I am not there celebrate with u for this big occasion,
but U're always in my heart.
I LOVE you daddy!
Stay healthy as always
♥

Love LIFE ♥ (:

Hello guys...
Life is still going on as usual...
My life was just so busyyyy...
Nahhh...before get started my daily life, lets show u my IDOL-SHANE!♥I am just so in LOVE with HIM since I was still a little gal...♥
Westlife's SHANE

This morning, I woke up by 6.30am automatically but not been awakened by my alarm set which was 6.50am!!! Wat the tuuuu!!! Undeniably, I'm still in sleepy mode but just couldn't stay in bed as usual...coz time is too limited as today got test1 of F&B Management1!!! OMG!!!Haven't well-prepared yet!!! I had to seize the time to do the last quick revise!!! OMG!!! In order to stay awake from asleep, I cooked a glass of HOT milo and eat with ''Su Da Bing'' as my today's BREAKFAST!!! Nahh...going to tell you that it wasn't cure at all!!! I was still in sleepy mode!!!Ishhh!!!!
It's been awhile, time flies to 8am. Its time to go down to catch the INTI bus, otherwise I will be missed the bus for sure. I walked alone toward the front gate of INTI...Eee...The way toward the gate, I noticed that both kristy and sii yiing were already waiting there. So early!!!Everyone seems so tired!Short semesters is always in rush! EXHAUSTED!
I sat alone inside the bus as ah hui was overnite her boyfiee there and her boyfieee will drive her to Hilton for sure.^^
Yayyy, I took out the notes and started to go simply go through them. It has been taken few minutes then I was fell into asleep. Everyone was sleeping in the bus the way to Hilton. We were just so tired!lol..
Ah hui wasn't there when I reached Hilton. So, I just waited her in the training room and tried to have quick revise. Honestly, my memory wasn't good yet it has lotsa things to memorize through the notes that had been given by the lecturer!!!Gosh,wanna die kiii!!! Ah hui was came after 10 minutes later if I was not mistaken... All of us was just tried our best to do our last effort before the exam start! Jason was so leng gang there yet kept chatting with Lesley...haiz...speechless toward him...up to him lo...coz he had his own way as he had been told me that what he is going to do during the exam! Guys owes like tat la, lazy yet stubborn! I had been told him many times:''don't try to cheat during the exam! Dangerous! don't play play!" but what was his respond?he said:"Boy's memory not good, couldn't memorize many things, But gal's memory is much more better than guy!"haiz...That was an excuses that u had been dropped!!!=='' So STUBBORN! blerk!!!
About the exam, it wasn't went so well but stil considered okay as I can still filled the answer. Just hope that I can PASS it then it will be alright for me!Bless me!!!
Exam was finished at 11.30am. As Kah Jong was driving to Hilton, ah hui and me just followed his car way back to INTI College.
It was 10 minutes before 12pm we had to get started another class. Gosh...Call us SUPERWOMEN!Haha...As usual, we just kept copying the different types of formal letter from this class. Today, we had been copied down 2 types of letter which was "Resignation Letter" and "Rejection Letter".Gosh...lotsa types of formal letter!!!It's going to kill me though~I hate formal letter as it need to memorize the format yet using formal word to complete the letter. haiz....
Class had been finished earlier...
After lunch, we went to INTIMA office...we just lepak there as usual..haha...
3pm, we had been attended a TALK from Prince Hotel which is came from KL. The one who delivered his speech is a foreigner!haha...Handsome!!!Likeyyyyyy^^ hehe.... He told us about the job, career, bla bla bla in the Hotel industry....he said:''it doesn't mean that u will be working at higher position just because u were finished ur degree from Switzeland or other famous Uni. In the Hotel Industry, Experience is much more IMPORTANT than a piece of certificate! And don't care about the salary as the salary in Hotel Industry is always low. We serve the guests with our whole-hearted."
Yayyy...What a good TALK for us! But honestly, I still haven't decided yet where to go for my training and which department I interested to!haiz...Just wait and see....^^
6pm, INTIMA meeting again....live to the FULLEST today!wahaha..XD

Let's show u guys some random pictures of today!haha

Me and Ah hui (:

Ah hui and Kah Jong ^^

LOL...They didn't noticed that....shhhh...haha...
Kah Jong and Poh Swee!!!
They were just so high while talking about gals...lol...
We had lotsa fun while waiting for the 6pm meeting in the INTIMA office.

Okayy guys...
Just want to tell...

the post is going to an END!
Toodles!!!
Cya^^
LOVE!

可不可以不做你的朋友.

"不做你的朋友"


Click play and listen it!
慢慢失忆　所有和你的事情必须忘记
爱的盆地　深怕在一滴眼泪就会决堤
我也不想　被你肯定　在这个时候 说我 让你感动过

别握住我的手　说我一定会懂　做不成的爱人变成最好朋友
别牵着我的手　想着别人脸孔　换个方式牵手　并不会更好过
可不可以　不做你朋友

慢慢心痛　没有人发现我和从前不同 (不同)
你的眼中　看得见另一个人给的感动
我也不要你心疼我　在这个时候 对我比从前温柔 (跟温柔)

别握住我的手　说我一定会懂　做不成的爱人变成最好朋友 (做不成的爱人变成)
别牵着我的手　想着别人脸孔　换个方式牵手　并不会更好过
可不可以　不做你朋友

应该放晴的天气　还下雨　别这样下去　我难过　但是说不出口

RAP:
一直逃避　我以为闭上眼睛就能忘记
我的记忆开始在雨天的七月二十三
慢慢经过我们一起绕过的十字街头
怎么走都走不到尽头

握住我的手　说我一定会懂　做不成的爱人变成最好朋友 (做不成的爱人变成)
别牵着我的手　想着别人脸孔　换个方式牵手　并不会更好过
可不可以　别回头　可不可以　就放手　可不可以　不做你的朋友

I've been listening this song just now...
I like the lyrics.
Each word each line are just so meaningful to me.

Tat's all.
Wordless for this post.
LOVE Pauline cECILIA

S.H.E - 不做你的朋友 (KTV)

LOST CONTROL ):

"LOST CONTROL"
Actually I have no idea what I am going to post.
Just a Feeling for these few days.
I felt LOST once again.
I felt ALONE once again.
Tired of handling those MEMORIES.
Tired of HIDING.(feeling)
Tired of CRYING.(missing)
Tired of TRYING.(as a friend)
Despite how sad and hurt I am,
the fact is,
I still can't LET go!!!!!!!
Not NOW!!!
Tell me WHEN!!!
Tell me WHY???
It's not ur fault,
it's just my problem.
WESTLIFE "HOME"
Don't ask why this SONG.
Just this SONG.

Who am I?(Feelings)

“我”

我承认我不是强者，
也不奢望成为强者，
因为根本不可能。

我承认我是个弱者，
也是个胆小鬼，
因为那这就是我。

我一点也不聪明，
头脑一点也不发达。
所以，
我曾自卑过，
我流着泪对着天主说：“为什么我这么笨？什么都做不好？。”
我知道天主听到了，
而我的话也一定伤了天主。

天主对我的话有了回应。
他说：“我的女儿，你知道你最大的财富是什么吗？”
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答案：善良的心。
虽然我没有聪明的头脑，
可是我有颗善良的心。
这是财富吗？
只要是天主赐给我的每一样东西，
那就是最大的“财富”。

身边的人，
就像是我的责任。
我喜欢照料周遭的人，
我喜欢对他人施舍我所有，
只要当下的我是有能力的，
我决不会说不，
就算自己饿着了也愿意。

我喜欢逗朋友笑，
看到他们因为我的逗趣而灿烂的笑，
我内心是感动的。
朋友们是怎么看待我这个人都无所谓，
只要他们对我是真心的，
那就足够了。

对于爱情，
我还是忘不了过去。
对于一个忠于念旧的人，
回忆又怎能轻易的被磨灭呢？
如果可以，
就让我失忆吧。

I woke up around 8.3oam this morning. Undeniably I'm still in sleepy mode.
But I was forcing myself to wake up as I am kind don't like to waste time.
Do some pray before off to bath-ing.
After well-prepared, I took out the daily bible and started to read.
Each word each line in the bible was just so meaningful to me.
I like reading bible but I always spend the least on it.==

Honestly, I have been taken out the Previous Diary Book this morning without any reason.
It has been kept for ages since we broke up.
I've been went through all the pages by pages that I had been note down in this book.
MEMORIES is Beautiful.
But it has it's UPs and DOWNs.

Though it is just a

Simple Note Book

But, it had been kept all the moments that we ever had in the past.

Mind has been started messy these few days.
Tired.
Tat's all for this moment.
Off to bath.

I have been lost my way.

We are FAMILY♥ Part 2 (I'm LOST)

Hello!!!!!!!!
Sorry for the hiatus...
It's been awhile since I've blog...
Neither busy nor free, just kinda LAZY

Yay...I'm not going to write much for this post but just
Let's picture talk to u (:

Finally, he has been entered his dreamland once again.

This is my Eldest Brother who is also one of my Idol.
I am so envy him as he has been succeeded in his life.
He has his own business, he has his own family, he has his own talent in musical instrument and more.

After dinner, we had a window shop at parkcity mall.
Mummy bought me 2 novels which is of coz still the same writter>>>Cecilia Ahern.
I had been forgotten to take the picture for both novels. So, I'm not going to upload them here.^^

Here comes to the Mother's Cake.
Bought from Farley Bakery Bintulu.
Taste wasn't bad.
But I had just a few bites cos I'm still jaga my weight mah..
But still gained lotsa fats for this holiday.
haih...
But, I've been succeeded to lose down after came back inti here.

Guess wat???
He had been asleep when we watched the TV program with the bites of Mother's cake.
He hadn't eaten the cake that night.
*Pity him*
He was too tired as he didn't take nap in the noon time.

2nd day.
Nice hairstyle had been set by his dad.
HANDSOME(:

We had our breakfast at XXX cafe.
I've been forgotten the name of that cafe.
She kept on playing her mum's cellphone.

After finished our breakfast, time was nearly to 11am. It can't be deny the fact that they will be late to church after sending us back home.
But at least they didn't escape the mass service.
My pretty mom (:
Eldest Brother and Mom
This picture had been taken after I had been nagging by my mum.

Well, I've been finished my "We are FAMILY Part2" post here.

Kinda not in the mood at the moment.
I was just so stressed...

I didn't pray rosary for long time...Mother Mary sure felt so disappointed on me.):
I felt guilty but I was still can't even managed my time for all the things...
Always have a mindset that the time is too limited for me.
Kept on thinking negative things instead of positive.
I hate this kind if me!
):

Lost