Question for Pauline cECILIA

Just came back from miri last night.
Tired and feeling exhausted...
The journey way back to Sibu from Miri,
It was the 2nd time Am sat alone inside the bus and listen to music through my cell phone...
It was damned damned cold inside the bus...
plus, the worst thing,
it was a rainy day...
Am almost became a SNOWGAL.
The lyrics with the melody let my emotions came...
Am kept thought and thought...
My mind constantly emerging previous things...
Only a QUESTION I would like to ask myself...
It will be : Am I still?
Am I still do stand ORIGIN???
Gosh...
It cannot be!!!
I should be look forward!!!
Rather than still miss to the PAST!!!
WHY???
Pauline,
U urself should know how much you were being hurt and how pain it will be!!!
It is not worth for u to think back and teardrop again and again!!!
I admit that Am a silly gal...
But the things come naturally...
Me myself cannot be avoided...

Sometimes,
Am thought of the 1st piece of fallen leaf...
Am felt damn regret coz of let IT go...
Why am I did not grasp it...
Now, it had been flying to the hands of others...

Sometimes,
Am miss the moment with the 2nd piece of fallen leaf...
Everything I did for IT is full with my LOVE HEART...
And I am willing to sacrifice for IT...
But wat I get from IT was HURT.

That's why!!!
Why am I still miss to the past!!!

Stupid Silly PAULINE!!!