Don't dare to on9...

I don't know what actually i m thinking of in this moment and next moment... The answer in this moment might be not same as the next moment. When i am in silence state, my mind will think of u automatically. That's no reason...i don't know why???!!! I hate this kind of me... I got a lot of thing that i don't dare to do coz of u...coz i don't want to drop toward ur heart once again...its really PAINFUL and TOUGH... Don't know whether u ever know about what i m thinking of and do for u? Nowadays, i don't dare to on FACEBOOK and MSN... coz this is the only way for me to prevent to think of u... I really hope that i can totally put down... The way u treat me now maybe just a normal friend, but not for me!!!=='' Because i will confuse of what u done! I really scare of it!!!:(...scare that i will drop into ur heart once again... Please DON'T!!! Plz...Plz...Plz...:( Don't do anything toward me again and again....ENOUGH...:(

Hui is my best friend... She is always stay beside me when i m facing the trouble... She know what i m thinking of...evytime she advised me that don't be silly once again... she said that i m her best friend, she don't want me been hurt again...this guy nice to be a best friend, but nt suit to be ur BOY FRIEND! Hui:''Just try to explain and say to urself that he is not suit u...so don't put HOPE...''

Ya...i'll...it is Time JOB and also depends on my HEART...Pauline, +U...

What to do on a Boring SATURDAY

I have Nothing To Do Today! I am so BORED!!!=='' Should i get some friends together and go to a movie, go shopping? Nope, stil the same thing i can do is sit in front of my laptop and on the facebook again...sigh~

Dictionary of LOVE

Last few days, me and my best friend--Hui have created a Dictionary of LOVE group in my facebook. The purpose of create this group is for all of u to do the discussion about LOVE. We can share our LOVE experience, LOVE story, LOVE trouble...etc... Even i am one of the creator, i admitted tat i m also the one who was broken heart in LOVE relationship before. As a gal, i really dunno y guys can set the love ''Building'', and the next moment he can destroy it at all??? So sad...=='' Attention:u all can discuss love things at ''Dictionary of LOVE''in my facebook...share ur love...

The email address will be pchjt@yahoo.com(facebook)

The 2nd website is paulinesally.blogspot.com(blogspot)

welcome all of u come to join us...

Wow...time passed really fast...now ord 6PM. I ord wasted my whole noon to do nothg...and the weather is really hot even just now rain for awhile...

What should i eat for my dinner tonight? If i m on diet, i wont worry about tat lame things...just take my GREEN APPLE for my 3 meals...but nowadays,i m lazy to diet...maybe stress on my studying...cant concentrate on diet... Hui said want to eat burger tat sell at roadside...we have long long time ago din eat tat burger since last semester...Last few weeks, we plan to buy burger from roadside stall, unfortunately they have their ''off-day''...arhhhhhhhhhhh....NO LUCK!!! hope today they got open...but i thk today they ''off-day''again...If happened as i said, no choice...CAFETERIA is the only choice for our fill our stomachhhhhhhh...really dun wish to touch CAFETERIA food anymore la...liaksssss....eveyday same menu...din update their menu...''==

Now, plan to take my shower again...really hot!!! ''STICKY" is only a word tat can describe my body right now.=='' After take my shower, maybe have my reading time awhile plus waiting the time pass til around 7PM...then go down have our dinner...After dinner, we plan to hv a movie time tat rent from Kah Jong...That movie we borrowed from him since last few weeks, coz of no time to watch it, then plan tonight to watch...
Okay lah...go take bath now...
BYE BYE...XD

Saturday night (empty HEART)

LOVE NEVER FAILS

I like this sentence... But it was failed in my life... My LOVE was gone...

Why am i like this??? Every time, u want me to help u to do something and i will never reject u. And also i do all ur request without any regret. Why? Why i still same as before??? Please stop it okay?! I m tired of it!!! Really TIRED at all!!!=='' Now, u touch my life again...the more u find me, the more i confuse...
Tonight,we chat through msn once again...u ask me to send u some nice songs...sure i can send all of them to u if u wan... Btw, u said that when i m going back to Bintangor, u will bring me go to watch Horror movie at Sibu's cinema. U make me feel like back to the PAST. Last time when we still in relationship status, u ever dated me to watch Horror movie at cinema. Unfortunately, haven't reach that day, our fate was gone...
Why? I'm really don't understand why? Why i can done all ur request without any complaint?! I admit that u still stay in my heart...i cant forget U...WHY??????? I'm so suffer right now...=='' Do u ever know what i m thinking of? Do u ever know What I Hv Done For U? Pauline cECILIA is missing of U...

5 months later...

11 Feb 09,the day u return bek my freedom to me. U said:''u deserve to get more better than tis...i cant fulfill u...u have freedom...find a better man."i din understand at all...i tot we would be together forever...i was wrong.i tried to talk to u...and try to ask u whether u seriously love me?seriously in tis relationship? U juz drop a word 'sorry'...ur promises was gone...i cried...i til want u back...u were nvr satisfied...no matter hw hard i try, its over...is u return back my freedom to me...

Last night (1 June 09) Monday, U ask do i til hate u through msn? u know u hurt me deep. Evytime u said sorry to me for wat u hv done to me...y????ya...i til HATE U!!!coz i do love u til nw...but i never told u the real answer.i simply said tat i dunno. For U, its over...for me, its nt over...i foolishly held on tightly on our love...evyday i tried to smile even though i m aching inside...i tried to smile even though my heart is breaking. U were the one who set it all up...nw u r the one who made it stop. Its hard for me to accept.I know its all over btw us...the only person i truly care for...left me with a broken heart...LOVE...it fell apart and it broke my heart...i love u once and i love u still...silly gal...Should i smile bcoz we are frenz or should i cry bcoz tat is all tat we ever be...Everythg i learned about breaking...i learned it frm u...

Its really funny how someone can break ur heart and u til love them with all the little pieces.

I miss U...

The one thing i learned...it's not always rainbow and butterflies. U promised me u wouldn't hurt me.but...u lied. U hurt me...and no matter how happy i seem...i hurt deeper then u'll ever know...i asked wat was wrong...and u juz drop by to say tat me deserve to get more better than this...many things u cant fulfill me...u give me a freedom...want me to find another better guy...i was the only one who get hurt but u never ever know...is u let it go such easily...Now i feel like i'm the only one til HURTING...
I admitted tat i fall in love too easilly...and i know this was all my FAULT...i always thought u were...It's funny how someone can break ur heart and u still love them with all the little pieces...i get the truth from u even it is really hurt...the truth is u never take me to ur heart...and nt really love me...I hv so many questions want to ask u...but dunno hw to ask...it was hurt when i think of u every middle of the night...
Did it mean anything to u, the 1st time i said ...''I LOVE U"??? Do i mean anything to u at all? U til mean so much to me but i m ur MISTAKE!!!
Words can never replace tis kind of feelings!!! I wil try to move on and hv no regrets... I want to tel U one thing...I miss u...

Why???

Why do thgs have to change?why cant anythg stay the same...juz for a little while?why does God blow tis reckless,raging wind through my life and scatter evythg n evy1 around?=.="

Hate takes alot of Love

I kneel on the floor,
Tears falling from my eyes.
I have learnt to hate you,
Along with all your lies.

Then why do I still love you?
Why am i still here?
When you have broken me,
and still not shed a tear.

People say it’s plain to see,
People say its clear.
That if i just run away,
You would just disapear.

But nothing was ever simple,
There’s nothing clear to see.
I could never run away,
From what was once so dear to me.

I love you but i hate you,
Without you i’d be dead.
But you’ll be the death of me,
With all the things you’ve said.

I know this won’t make any sense,
You might misunderstand.
Please just never leave me,
I hope you’ll understand.