Last wish in 2009

Last wish in 2009, I pray to the Lord God to give me an independence of mind. Lord God, please give me STRENGTH! I need U so much! I hope that at this moment you touch my head and then tell me: ''my child, believe in yourself and you are OK, I look at you all the single time. You will always be my good gal=)))''♥
Last night I cried all night, causing my both eyes swollen this morning.
Why am I crying?
Because I feel Inferior!
I feel very Impotent!
Habitual reliance on friends, often don't make decisions for myself!
I HATE this kind of ME!!!
I WANT To CHANGE!!!
Change to the NEW Pauline cECILIA!!!
2010 is the new beginning for me!!!
NEW YEAR,
NEW LIFE,
NEW TARGET,
NEW BEGINNING,
NEW CHANGES...as well!!!

I went:'' Lord God, my heart is beating with U,
my soul is living in U,
my whole life is in U!''
I LOVE U!!!♥

Am the Child of God=)))

If it is FATE...

If it is fate, we surely will meet again.If it is true fate, everyone encounters each other are all in timing.

If fate really exists between us, we will naturally meet each other by the right time. I think so...How about u? Do u believe in fate?
I don't want to disrupt ur life...I don't want to be a silly gal...
I should be a mature gal as I have been reminding myself don't give so much room for my imagination!!!
Oh God, until when I just can put aside my past? Today, I've completely lost my spirit to do everything...Can't pay so much concentrate on the drama even it's my favourite korean drama...*sobbing*==''
God went:'' All this just can only rely on your own. If you've never want to let go, then you'll never fit in the past.
Now just can only rely on your own, believe yourself can be able to do it, then it already half of the battle.''
I went:'' I've tried to forget all the past...I DID...but I FAILED...When ''HE'' appear in front of me, all the efforts will suddenly collapsed. Therefore, I have to start from scratch. Honestly, I really tired...I really exhausted all about it!!! Please ask whether he has had such a feeling???

Pauline, Live out your LIFE

Dedicated to YOU...but it must be STOPPED!!!

There is also a period of time I am not going to update my blog...
Recently, I still think of you...
Last few days, I went to Sibu with bunch of friends...
We talked and laughed...
Indeed, my body still with them, but my heart was gone with the wind very far, and thought about whether I will meet you somewhere in Sibu?
LOLX...
Again and again!!!
Cannot deny the fact that I still will miss you...
Sigh...==''
Where are you now?
How are you doing so far?
Has been a long time did not get your news since we were broke up.
Deleted and blocked out all the way to contact you is to ensure that I can forget you as soon as possible...That 10 digit is still engraved in my mind although it has been deleted from my contact list , it kept lingering...But I will never contact you anymore...Because everything is OVER...Is no longer possible to return back to before...
Why am I still tired and still dedicated to you???!!!

Dedicated to YOU