I saw it...

The answer is for me?

分手后。。。

　 入睡前空气中有著你的气味

　　分手后时常有你回来的错觉

　　关上风吹的窗留一盏灯对自己的伤痛不敢过问

　　我是诚实的人还爱你不敢承认

　　黎明前脑海申闪过一种后悔

　　分手后我曾经害怕流的眼泪

　　那颗慌乱的心失去理性围困在孤灯下无法安静

　　我是守夜的人守候著每道伤痕

　　分手的苦难我一个人承担谁教我爱著你无法隐瞒

　　我不想再爱谁我只想得到你的安慰

　　你走后无人可值守的夜打包记忆的伤心的最细微

　　那些你早遗忘残忍的拒绝

　　那个被你轻易删去的忽略

原来只是一场梦。。。瞬间即逝

我们的故事结束了。像似一场梦。。。我多希望这不会是一场梦，就算是一场梦，也希望永远都不要醒来。
我很爱很爱你。。。我承认当我提出分手那一刻，眼泪狂流。。。我无法想象未来的日子该怎么过。我希望我会是快乐的，幸福的。。。心里存着万分的不舍，我一点也不想松手，但是紧抓着不是属于我的‘爱’，也得不到我想要的幸福。
结束了就是结束了。。。
要忘记你，不是件简单的事。
我好怕。。。
一旦想起你，泪水就不禁流下。。。
时间会帮我吗？
现在，
看着电脑，
心里都感到不安，
因为，
它让我想起与你的点点滴滴。
我好想好想和你在一起。。。
我们的未来，
我都想好了。。。
可是，
命运始终不让我们在一起厮守到老。
也许，
我们真的是“有缘无分”。
不被祝福的爱，
就让它随风飘走吧。
我希望，
我做得到。
加油，茹婷！

沉思的夜晚。。。“渴望”与“胆却“

又是一个没有你的夜晚，我指的是没有与你Skype的夜晚。。。而不是指见面。。。因为我们就连相见都难。有时候我真的很埋怨，埋怨自己选择的路是如此的坎坷难走，不过我却没有想要放弃的念头。难道是主要我坚持住吗？主自有安排吗？有时候，我很郁闷，为什么我始终得不到那种被爱的感觉，是距离的问题吗？
常常在路边看到许多情侣双双对对，而自己却依然独当一个，深爱的“他”却在地球的另一方。心理的酸度不禁加深。。。
许多时候，我选择不去埋怨，我怕伤感情。两段恋情，我却是以360度完全不一样的态度面对和解决。以前的我常常因为小事而大发脾气，而面对现在这段感情我却是如此"收敛"，也许是怕再有一次“失去”的感觉吧。你看得到我所做的一切吗？看得到我对你的爱吗？我爱你！所以很多时候我无法放纵地跟你吵虽然当时是伤心的。因为，我怕。。。我怕伤感情。。。我怕感情出现裂痕。。。我要的是什么，你知道吗？我要的不多，我要的是，我在你心中的地位与爱。
“为什么”？！这三个字一直在脑海里打转。。。为什么始终没有做到我要的？我的要求就那么简单，信息多一点。我已经试着去体谅你，往往还会帮你找借口，也许你信息少是因为你正在忙，所以不能不断信息我。我也不想去计较那么多了，说了还是一样，我也不想伤感情。也许我得去适应你的恋爱方法，这样就不会伤感情了吗？希望如此。
你对我做的一切，哪怕只是小事一桩我都会感到贴心与感动，旁人是感觉不到那种甜蜜的感觉。只有我在享受其中，因为那是你为我而做的事情。
我无法隐藏我对你的爱，我对你的爱已经随着时间一天天慢慢地在加深。我怕你承受不起我那厚大的爱。深怕有天你会因为我的爱而呼吸不过来而再次离开了我。
我的喜怒哀乐都在你掌控中，就像你说的：“你是负责掌控游戏的玩者”。你也告诉了我你已经把“怒”和“哀”的按钮拔了。而我也不想过着“怒”与“哀”的生活，很累。。。
夜已深，身在另一方的你已在梦里与周公相会了，而我依旧沉醉于想你的点点滴滴。想你就像是我每天必备的工作，永远都那么地准时。不知你是否也和我一样？
常常想与你好好地在Skype上聊天，但你却很少把心思放在我身上，看着电脑另一方的你，我心里是怎么想的，心痛。花点心思在我们的感情上，这是我想要的。我没有在无理取闹，这是女孩子都渴望的。
最近看了太多人的爱情世界了，每个人都面临着各自的难题。爱情让人渴望，也让人胆却。

Unforgettable day...''present'' from ALIAN!!!

Today, i having my lunch with Jiang Ting and Ting Ming at Cafeteria. Ting Ming came back here since last night. After finish our lunch, we walked back to hostel together. As usual, i sat in front of my pc and on my facebook and listening to the music...quite boring at the noon time...

When i was in the time to concentrate on my facebook, there is no denying that he-Alian called me.
Alian:''Pauline, can u accompany me go out awhile?"
Pauline:"Go where? For what?"
Alian:"I'm going to withdrawal money, photostat my results and going to apply the course that i would like to study in UCSI... and i help u pay the fare...u just need to accompany me."
Pauline:"haiz...oklah...wait me few minutes."
Alian:"OK...im waiting u at Lobby."
Pauline:"OK."
Hung up the phone
After called Uncle Nelson, we waited for about half an hour...huh...we are talking about a lot of things...his family...his siblings...really funny and interesting...^^
Between, Alian really is a kind of person very very very hardworking and willing to sacrifice for all the events especially for INTIMA...
And it is undeniable that he is an emotional person also...
He plans to continue his studies in Kuala Lumpur as he told us last few days...
He told me that he is fond of mathematics...
Finally, he chose the architecture as the consultant told him that his choice is correct...there are a lot of calculating inside this course...
2:16pm, Uncle Nelson just came...huh...
We went to BDC first as he said he wanna withdrawal money, photostat...bla bla bla...
After completing all the things, we went to Taipei 101 for a drink...=)

Here is the famous menu that put in the front door

Stick a lot of customer photos...proved that a lot of pp patronize this cafe o...=) Alian is the one of them...=) Me is the first time came to this Cafe...recommended by Alian...=)

Menu of Taipei 101
We din ordered food coz of i m on diet and he is no appetite to take any food...but we ordered a drink...
I ordered Honey Lemon Juice... I'm addicted to this JUICE... Everyday drink this Juice in INTI...=)

Alian ordered Lime Juice if not mistaken... hehe... forgot wat is the name of his juice...paiseh...^^

The environment inside quite comfortable and nice... but compare with KaDo‘角落’，til not as good as KaDo... Wish to go KaDo with my babe boy...
Guess wat?! We were waiting for Desmond to come and pick us to UCSI...
Finally, he came.
huh...

As usual, they argued because of little things again...
lame enough... Sometimes really lazy to bother about them...haiz...

Here UCSI in Kuching...

Has not been fully completed, til in the construction...
but the environment at there quite nice and comfortable...=)


Discussing about the courses...

And about the Hostel...

Guess wat?!
That's what Alian present to me before he leave kuching to KL to further his Study...
such BIG present!!!
I fell down in front door of UCSI...
I stepped into the ditch...
lead my both legs bleeding...
don't leave me a scar a...
if not,
Alian...
jaga u!!!
hen!!!blek!!!XD

This is my another leg...
keep bleeding...
lead a hole there...
so terrible...=.=

nah...Alian helped me wash the wound...
tats his responsibility too...
coz if not me accompany him go UCSI...
then i wont happen tis trouble ma...
hahaha...XD
After that, i walked back to hostel alone...
=.=

surviving NIBIRU...I LOVE JESUS CHRIST

Guess wat?!!!i got a forward message that sent by my friend who is called Kristy just now...I am extremely alarmed!!!
The content of message is about NIBIRU planet...
In 2012, a planet called NIBIRU/Planet - X may reek real havoc on our planet as it passes through our inner solar system.

Not only that,

By 2010, Nibiru will be the headline of every major newspaper in the world and global pandemic would soon follow.

By then it will be almost to late to prepare for the inevitable. Will we be one of them?

UNKNOWN!!!

Currently Nibiru is being seen with the naked eye in the skies in the most southern hemisphere.

By 2010 Nibiru will be able to be seen with the naked eye in the northern hemisphere.

Don't know why, low in mood right now...feeling sad...not happy...the NEWS come too SUDDEN!!! I have not mentally prepared... If this is TRUE, this proves that we have only two years and eight months of time left on this EARTH. I am very frustrated at this point in time...Feel that they have a lot of things til not yet to complete!!!

This NEWS let me know that at this moment we need to cherish all the immediate... Try to cherish the people around u...ur FAMILIES, FRIENDS, LOVERS, even STRANGER oso...Because the time is really running out...

Such a short period of time, What can we do?

So UPSET...

Cause of growing of EVIL of mankind, now really want to come to the end of the world... God already give too much of chance in this world...DON'T say NO!!! Is we not to APPRECIATE it!!! Have you ever thought about who is the one to bear these hardships? We committed the crime, the one who is in suffering is Jesus Christ.

Our Lady of the mother looked at her son - Jesus Christ is being affected by the plight of...The kind of pain is unspeakable words...She is also often face wash to tears...

Is the time for us to WAKE UP!!! Seriously!!!

Taking the time to speak with God, you will know what is so-called happiness and relaxed.
Friends...Take an hour to pray 15 decades of rosary...(for those who are Roman Catholic followers)...Guess wat?! I did it since monday...and i til going on...wont give up...and i get the happiness and relaxed of it!!! AWESOME peace!!! Survive from sadness, moody, stressfulness and etc...throw away all the RUBBISH thinking!!! Everything is arrange by GOD...As i said, GOD is EVERYTHING!!! GOD is ALL mankind!!! No GOD, No ME in this world!!!

I LOVE JESUS CHRIST!!!