S.H.E - 不做你的朋友 (KTV)

LOST CONTROL ):

"LOST CONTROL"
Actually I have no idea what I am going to post.
Just a Feeling for these few days.
I felt LOST once again.
I felt ALONE once again.
Tired of handling those MEMORIES.
Tired of HIDING.(feeling)
Tired of CRYING.(missing)
Tired of TRYING.(as a friend)
Despite how sad and hurt I am,
the fact is,
I still can't LET go!!!!!!!
Not NOW!!!
Tell me WHEN!!!
Tell me WHY???
It's not ur fault,
it's just my problem.
WESTLIFE "HOME"
Don't ask why this SONG.
Just this SONG.

Who am I?(Feelings)

“我”

我承认我不是强者，
也不奢望成为强者，
因为根本不可能。

我承认我是个弱者，
也是个胆小鬼，
因为那这就是我。

我一点也不聪明，
头脑一点也不发达。
所以，
我曾自卑过，
我流着泪对着天主说：“为什么我这么笨？什么都做不好？。”
我知道天主听到了，
而我的话也一定伤了天主。

天主对我的话有了回应。
他说：“我的女儿，你知道你最大的财富是什么吗？”
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答案：善良的心。
虽然我没有聪明的头脑，
可是我有颗善良的心。
这是财富吗？
只要是天主赐给我的每一样东西，
那就是最大的“财富”。

身边的人，
就像是我的责任。
我喜欢照料周遭的人，
我喜欢对他人施舍我所有，
只要当下的我是有能力的，
我决不会说不，
就算自己饿着了也愿意。

我喜欢逗朋友笑，
看到他们因为我的逗趣而灿烂的笑，
我内心是感动的。
朋友们是怎么看待我这个人都无所谓，
只要他们对我是真心的，
那就足够了。

对于爱情，
我还是忘不了过去。
对于一个忠于念旧的人，
回忆又怎能轻易的被磨灭呢？
如果可以，
就让我失忆吧。

I woke up around 8.3oam this morning. Undeniably I'm still in sleepy mode.
But I was forcing myself to wake up as I am kind don't like to waste time.
Do some pray before off to bath-ing.
After well-prepared, I took out the daily bible and started to read.
Each word each line in the bible was just so meaningful to me.
I like reading bible but I always spend the least on it.==

Honestly, I have been taken out the Previous Diary Book this morning without any reason.
It has been kept for ages since we broke up.
I've been went through all the pages by pages that I had been note down in this book.
MEMORIES is Beautiful.
But it has it's UPs and DOWNs.

Though it is just a

Simple Note Book

But, it had been kept all the moments that we ever had in the past.

Mind has been started messy these few days.
Tired.
Tat's all for this moment.
Off to bath.

I have been lost my way.

We are FAMILY♥ Part 2 (I'm LOST)

Hello!!!!!!!!
Sorry for the hiatus...
It's been awhile since I've blog...
Neither busy nor free, just kinda LAZY

Yay...I'm not going to write much for this post but just
Let's picture talk to u (:

Finally, he has been entered his dreamland once again.

This is my Eldest Brother who is also one of my Idol.
I am so envy him as he has been succeeded in his life.
He has his own business, he has his own family, he has his own talent in musical instrument and more.

After dinner, we had a window shop at parkcity mall.
Mummy bought me 2 novels which is of coz still the same writter>>>Cecilia Ahern.
I had been forgotten to take the picture for both novels. So, I'm not going to upload them here.^^

Here comes to the Mother's Cake.
Bought from Farley Bakery Bintulu.
Taste wasn't bad.
But I had just a few bites cos I'm still jaga my weight mah..
But still gained lotsa fats for this holiday.
haih...
But, I've been succeeded to lose down after came back inti here.

Guess wat???
He had been asleep when we watched the TV program with the bites of Mother's cake.
He hadn't eaten the cake that night.
*Pity him*
He was too tired as he didn't take nap in the noon time.

2nd day.
Nice hairstyle had been set by his dad.
HANDSOME(:

We had our breakfast at XXX cafe.
I've been forgotten the name of that cafe.
She kept on playing her mum's cellphone.

After finished our breakfast, time was nearly to 11am. It can't be deny the fact that they will be late to church after sending us back home.
But at least they didn't escape the mass service.
My pretty mom (:
Eldest Brother and Mom
This picture had been taken after I had been nagging by my mum.

Well, I've been finished my "We are FAMILY Part2" post here.

Kinda not in the mood at the moment.
I was just so stressed...

I didn't pray rosary for long time...Mother Mary sure felt so disappointed on me.):
I felt guilty but I was still can't even managed my time for all the things...
Always have a mindset that the time is too limited for me.
Kept on thinking negative things instead of positive.
I hate this kind if me!
):

Lost

Celcom Broadband was effing su*ks

Sorry for the late updated...This was not my fault, okay?!!!Please blame to the celcom broadband instead of me! It was such a SUCKS!!!!!!!
The line of Celcom Broadband was effing su*ks since last semester...
It was caused me lot of trouble..Totally drove me crazy!!!!! I have lot of pictures that haven't edited yet....I will be going to the Celcom Centre to complain them directly within this week!

GOshhhhh....SOrry readers....It's 1.22am now...It's morning again!!!Ohhh no!!!Time flies~
Tomorrow is the 1st day of my school reopening for the new semester...I supposed to sleep early instead of still typing here...
What I am going to say is...>>>
I will be continued the Part 2 of the previous post"We LOVE family" next time when I am here as I have been promised u guys that I will be continued the Part 2 of what was happening in Bintulu...
I've been spent my time on gossiping with Si hui about handsome guys tonight until I ignored yet forgotten to continue my typing here...It can't be deny the fact that I admire Handsome guys so damn much!But...it doesn't meant anything, so don't think over than that!

Okay...
I've to stop now!!!
Goodnite readers!
C ya...

Love

We are FAMILY♥ Part 1

Hello!!!

Am BACK!

I had a great weekend in Bintulu on last Saturday.
Everyone gathered and we were celebrating Happy Mother's Day over there.
I LOVE family gathering as it is very difficult and rare to get complete family members gathered together to celebrate such a BIG occasion "Happy Mother's Day".
Well, school reopen is nearly coming soon...Ohh NO!!!
Just now went to Sarikei with my dad to buy a bus ticket and it was showing that it's the time to stay back to my student life==''.
I will be going back on this coming Saturday.
Gosh...today is Wednesday!That's mean I just remaining 2 more days to spend my time with my lovely family!
Oh no...*sobbing*
=(
Back to the story in Bintulu.
I am going to show u guys some of my random catches during this trip.
Ahaaa...here they are:
My dad, me and my mum.
Erm...particular temple which is located at the way to bintulu...forgotten the name of the temple...*paiseh*
It was a damn hot day!!!
We were kept sweating during the visit.
After we reached Bintulu, we met my sister-in-law at 天详cafe...
The first thing I did was captured both lovely kids...^^
Kevin was sleepy yet shy when met us as he has been not seen us for some times!
She has grown up a lot, now a first year kindergarten student.(=
I ordered "Chicken Boxing"which was my sister-in-law recommended me to
have a try.
Yayy...it was nice taste yet the price was reasonable!
Worth to have a try!(=
After lunch, we went back to my eldest brother home to have a rest in order to continue the next station for the Mother's Day Dinner at the night time~~~
haha.
She likes coloring so damn much as she always went:"gugu, would u like to color with me later?"
She began to color the illustrations which drew by her teacher in the school.
Coloring~~~(=
Done!♥

Not forget to capture those moments...♥ahaha...
Those pictures were taken before we get into the sleep(nap time).xD♥

When all the people were entered their own dreamland, what he was doing there? He was just holding the milk bottle and looking at surrounding in a daze. He did not noticed that I've been captured this scene! HAHA!So cuteeeeeee...(=
After taking a nap, we went to Farley mall to have a shop, drinks...bla bla bla...
On the way to Farley, this kid was showing his sleepy in the car...he was so busy downstairs when we were sleeping upstairs...this cause to the result>>>he was so sleepy...
Finally, he was entered to his fantastic Dreamland!haha...cuteeeeee..xD
He was awakened by us...but can't deny the fact, he was still in sleepy mode.haha...XD
Mum bought a high heel for her this coming dancing performance.Mum, gambateh ya!!!
After shop, we had a drink at Farley Cafe.
Oh well,
Let's promote some of the special drinks in Farley Cafe Bintulu.
Worth to have a try!
Price is reasonable!
Fruit Blender
Flavors soups- 五味汤
Jalok
Momo chacha
After reached home, was their swimming time!
Haha..They had a great swimming time!!
My eldest brother brought us to Marco Polo to have our Mother's Day dinner. I like the inner environment so damn much....somewhat artistic..Loving loving it!!!teeheee..XD...If u're lucky, u can encounter some of the eldest foreigner having beer over there...Yayyy...I've encountered some of them on that night!!!hhaha...
The food were nice and the price? I don't know!hehe...coz my brother was the one who pay the bill...
U know what he was doing?
Yayy...he was take off his shoes before entering the restaurant...
Why?
Because he saw the carpet as he was take off his shoes before entering his nursery class.
Don't u feel that he is so lovely yet good boy?
Ya, definitely I tell u!!!
Here comes to the main character on that night!
Mom!
Happy Mother's Day!
We love you forever and ever and ever and ever....HAHAHA!
♥

My eldest brother, Kevin and my sister-in-law.
Erm, guys...I've to stop now...
But the story still haven't come to an END actually..
Still have lot of pictures I wanna to show here..
So, I will be back soon to tell u guys what was happening in Bintulu (=
C ya readers!
Toodles!!!

We are FAMILY!♥

My rarely 1st Time ♥

Owh...It's Friday today!!!
I never realize that time went so FAST so do YOU?!
Time Flies~
Well, 24 hours is so NOT enough for me.
After a week more, I have to go back to Kuching to further my studies in new semester!!!
School life is so tired yet fun! I just HATE exam and assignment every time!!! Roarrr. And next semester is a short semester, gosh!!! it will be a busy yet tired semester for SURE!

Guess what!!!
Me and my family will be going to Bintulu on tomorrow morning!
Woohoo!!!Going to c my both lovely niece - Faustina and nephew - Kevin!!! Miss them so damn muchhhhh!!! They are just so AWESOME! We LOVE them so damn much!!!

Here they are:
Faustina and my mum and also she so-called grandma(ah ma).:D

Here Kevin and my mum and also he so-called grandma(ah ma):D

Isn't they adorable?
We LOVE them!

Yayyy...Because of I rarely came back this holiday, so after I discussed with my eldest brother, we would like to take this chance to celebrate these both Mother's and Father's Day in Bintulu.

Oh well, lets show u guys some pictures of my both Mother's and Father's Day card that I am going to present "them" on tomorrow~
Just For my DAD♥ Here comes to the content that I've been wrote down inside the card.(:
Just for my MUM♥

Here comes to the content that I've been wrote down inside the card.(:

This can be regarded as my *First Time* to write down my sincere words in a card and give to my dad and mum.
I ever did to my lover, I ever did to my friends, but never did for my parents.
So, this is my rarely First Time!*Clapping*
(:♥:)

Alright, this post is going to an END!
C ya readers.
I'll be back soon if I'm not lazy^^
Toodles~

Love Pauline cECILIA♥