Assignment is fooling me around!!!!!!X(

Awwww...Readers!!!Tell me how to SURVIVE in such Condition!!!!
These few days I was so sick yet hopeless with my Communication level 4's Assignment!
The Question"Acquiring more than one language is crucial to work in Hotel Industry."
Actually I choose this question just because of I thought this is the most easier question among all the questions that had been listed down by her.
In fact..........it was WRONG!
When I asked others to give some opinion or ideas regarding this question, their 1st EXPRESSION was just:"Oops!Wat assignment lai de? So hard geh?!"
Gosh, I froze at the moment...

Well, the assignment is still in progressing...
My feeling toward this ASSIGNMENT:
.&*%#$@^&*^@$@&*

Test 2 for F&B Management1 will be on this coming Friday.

20 MCQ and 4 Practical Question!
LOLx...Hopefully everything proceeds as smooth as it can la....GOD BLESS.^^
Just now chatting with one of my senior through MSN. Not for other stuff, just for Assignment stuffs!
He is now having his industrial training in Penang.
Yayyy...I succeeded to get some information from him about the assignment.
He is such a talent student.
I am wondering...is it I am kind of easy to be read PERSON? Or I am just never hide my feelings?
Why I say so?
Beside my best friend and family...
He READ a part of mine.
Yayyy...he read me. I m a gal that is seriously lack of CONFIDENT!
I always have a mindset that I will never ever be as SUCCESSFUL as others.
I'm just an ordinary gal with ordinary mind yet nt a talent gal among all the friends.
I told him that for him sure can handle, for me sure die kiii (Study stuff).
He replied me: That's because you look down on urself.
And he sent me 2 quotes:"You can do it if you try - by Donald Trump
:"No matter what you do, always claim victory - by Donald Trump
Both quotes made me feel comfort at the moment.
Lack of CONFIDENT=INFERIORITY
I have always wearing on both of them...
Pauline Cecilia is as Fragile as Egg
Don't try to pinch her heart as it would be instantly broken.
She needs Caring!
She needs Comfort!
She needs Confident!
She needs Advice!
She needs LOVE!
She needs Hugs!
She needs Friends!
She needs whatever She wants!!!

She hates being Alone!
She hates Silent!
She hates Fat!
She hates feeling of Full!
She hates being dump!
She hates the feeling of Jealous!
She hates whatever she don't like!

The End of this POST!

Off to Revision for my F&B1.

Short Updated(Guess WHAT!?Pauline is getting STRESS)

Sky
This scene had been taken in Sematan beach last month if I'm not mistaken.

I love SKY. Don't you?

It's been awhile since I last blogged.
As u can see that my blogskin had been changed from dark emo theme to pinky strawberry theme.
What happened toward me?
Nothing happened.
Just because of I am so in LOVE with STRAWBERRY, so this come to the RESULT.
Actually I don't feel wanna to get my blog updated as I was lot of works need to go through.
But I was nagging by Si hui to at least leave some words or pictures here to not let the dust stick on my blog.
She is right, so I am here to get u guys updated.
I was just so stressed about all the stuffs.
I admit that I am kind of very emotional gal.
Happy in second, sad in another second.
Cheers up PAULINE!
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Before get into my blogging page here, I noticed that ah hui has been activated her blog last few days.
Good Job!
Keep it up ya my dear!
I will be punctual to c ur every updated post as always.
So, don't get me disappointed ya.
Before end this post,
I would like to wish my dad"Happy Father's Day".
Though I am not there celebrate with u for this big occasion,
but U're always in my heart.
I LOVE you daddy!
Stay healthy as always
♥

可不可以不做你的朋友.

"不做你的朋友"


Click play and listen it!
慢慢失忆　所有和你的事情必须忘记
爱的盆地　深怕在一滴眼泪就会决堤
我也不想　被你肯定　在这个时候 说我 让你感动过

别握住我的手　说我一定会懂　做不成的爱人变成最好朋友
别牵着我的手　想着别人脸孔　换个方式牵手　并不会更好过
可不可以　不做你朋友

慢慢心痛　没有人发现我和从前不同 (不同)
你的眼中　看得见另一个人给的感动
我也不要你心疼我　在这个时候 对我比从前温柔 (跟温柔)

别握住我的手　说我一定会懂　做不成的爱人变成最好朋友 (做不成的爱人变成)
别牵着我的手　想着别人脸孔　换个方式牵手　并不会更好过
可不可以　不做你朋友

应该放晴的天气　还下雨　别这样下去　我难过　但是说不出口

RAP:
一直逃避　我以为闭上眼睛就能忘记
我的记忆开始在雨天的七月二十三
慢慢经过我们一起绕过的十字街头
怎么走都走不到尽头

握住我的手　说我一定会懂　做不成的爱人变成最好朋友 (做不成的爱人变成)
别牵着我的手　想着别人脸孔　换个方式牵手　并不会更好过
可不可以　别回头　可不可以　就放手　可不可以　不做你的朋友

I've been listening this song just now...
I like the lyrics.
Each word each line are just so meaningful to me.

Tat's all.
Wordless for this post.
LOVE Pauline cECILIA

Who am I?(Feelings)

“我”

我承认我不是强者，
也不奢望成为强者，
因为根本不可能。

我承认我是个弱者，
也是个胆小鬼，
因为那这就是我。

我一点也不聪明，
头脑一点也不发达。
所以，
我曾自卑过，
我流着泪对着天主说：“为什么我这么笨？什么都做不好？。”
我知道天主听到了，
而我的话也一定伤了天主。

天主对我的话有了回应。
他说：“我的女儿，你知道你最大的财富是什么吗？”
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答案：善良的心。
虽然我没有聪明的头脑，
可是我有颗善良的心。
这是财富吗？
只要是天主赐给我的每一样东西，
那就是最大的“财富”。

身边的人，
就像是我的责任。
我喜欢照料周遭的人，
我喜欢对他人施舍我所有，
只要当下的我是有能力的，
我决不会说不，
就算自己饿着了也愿意。

我喜欢逗朋友笑，
看到他们因为我的逗趣而灿烂的笑，
我内心是感动的。
朋友们是怎么看待我这个人都无所谓，
只要他们对我是真心的，
那就足够了。

对于爱情，
我还是忘不了过去。
对于一个忠于念旧的人，
回忆又怎能轻易的被磨灭呢？
如果可以，
就让我失忆吧。

I woke up around 8.3oam this morning. Undeniably I'm still in sleepy mode.
But I was forcing myself to wake up as I am kind don't like to waste time.
Do some pray before off to bath-ing.
After well-prepared, I took out the daily bible and started to read.
Each word each line in the bible was just so meaningful to me.
I like reading bible but I always spend the least on it.==

Honestly, I have been taken out the Previous Diary Book this morning without any reason.
It has been kept for ages since we broke up.
I've been went through all the pages by pages that I had been note down in this book.
MEMORIES is Beautiful.
But it has it's UPs and DOWNs.

Though it is just a

Simple Note Book

But, it had been kept all the moments that we ever had in the past.

Mind has been started messy these few days.
Tired.
Tat's all for this moment.
Off to bath.

I have been lost my way.

Wanna Cry...(FATS)

Don't know how to descibe my feeling now...
Frustrated...
Speechless...
Am still missing something...
I know I shouldn't...
But who can control the feeling that come naturally...
NOBODY!
Honestly, I can't totally show and vent out all my feeling here...
Am feeling so sad...
I wanna cry...
I need a shoulder to lean on right now...
JESUS, I know u're beside me right now...
Please take me out from the sadness...

Am gained so much fat since I didn't control my meals and kept on eating...
That's the result=FATS!!!
I HATE it u know!!!
I HATE FATS!!!
My tummy was coming out to see me...
My whole body was KEMBANG!!!
So upset u know!!!
I need solution to deduct my excess fats!!!
Start from March,
I will totally follow my Slimming Schedule that has been created by my own!!!
Hope it will be succeed for this time!!!

FATS!!!

Do you???Am I???

Do you see me?
Do you still looking for me?
LOLz...XD
Undeniably, sometimes am still will looking for you...
No reason...
It came naturally...
1st Jan 2010, you've been sent me a greeting message ''Happy new year^^'' with 0168825067. Originally, am comfused who sent me the greeting message...therefore I replied back''Happy new year to u too, btw, may I know who are you?'' to u. After I sent, I froze a few seconds...Ochhh...Its U! No wonder that 10 digits was so familiar to me.
Because I've been deleted ur both contact numbers since we're broke up in order to let me to forget you as soon as possible, but can't be deny the fact, the numeral already engraved in my mind since the day we've been together. I've tried hardly to erased both of ur contact numbers from my mind, and I did not deliberately to remember these numeral but what I get is???
I still can remember your both contact numbers.
I want to know whether ur life is doing fine over there?
But I choose to hide... I've to control myself!
I don't even want to send you any message since I yet promised that I will never find you again, coz I don't want to get hurt once again.
Sometimes am still will missing the past...
And yet miss the moment we've been together.
In the past memories, you gave me enough ups and downs...
From LOVE to HATE and to the END...
Thats the sad ENDING!
We're have no future even we yet tried 4 times...
Arghhhh!!!!
Pauline cECILIA is getting crazy now...
LOLz...
She's still write such silly things in her blogger???
Lord God, please blessed me DON'T!!!
Have to stop now...
Goodnight boys and gals.
Have a good good nights.
Muackzzz...♥

Time Flies...

Oochh...
It's already Semester 5 since the 1st day I entered to this College.
I still remember,
it was a Saturday morning, it's rainy day, my cousin brought me to Inti College for the first Semester enrollment. *Excitement*, after all, coz this was my 1st time living life without parents. After enrollment, we went to buy some daily necessities for my ''Hostel Life''. *Lot of things*
The 1st day of my 1st Semester, I walked alone in this school, and constantly looking for my classroom in such a big College (actually it's not such BIG^^)without any familiar faces, my heart was beating fast, unfamiliar faces all around the school. x(
I'm trying to ask ppl around the school see whether they know where my classroom located. And my mind constantly pray to God to blessed me can met the person who take the same course and same subject with me right now...
Finally, one of my senior brought me to the classroom...*perhaps he is an angel sent by God?heee^^*
Time flies~~~
It's has been a year and 3 months I further my studies in this College and still continueing now...
So that extent,
I still left more than a year here to further my studies.
Although it's not a very perfect, good, nice and excellent College, but it's not bad as well. And I really appreciated what I had get from this College. Expecially *Friendship*. I've met lot of friends here, both local and foreign friends. I really treasure a *friendship* with them.♥hugs♥
Imagine the day of our graduation day for diploma, am sure that I will cry badly on that day! Coz I really love u guys so much...After graduation, it's hardly for us to be gathered as usual we hv now...
Therefore, we must cherish the moment we have now.

If it is FATE...

If it is fate, we surely will meet again.If it is true fate, everyone encounters each other are all in timing.

If fate really exists between us, we will naturally meet each other by the right time. I think so...How about u? Do u believe in fate?
I don't want to disrupt ur life...I don't want to be a silly gal...
I should be a mature gal as I have been reminding myself don't give so much room for my imagination!!!
Oh God, until when I just can put aside my past? Today, I've completely lost my spirit to do everything...Can't pay so much concentrate on the drama even it's my favourite korean drama...*sobbing*==''
God went:'' All this just can only rely on your own. If you've never want to let go, then you'll never fit in the past.
Now just can only rely on your own, believe yourself can be able to do it, then it already half of the battle.''
I went:'' I've tried to forget all the past...I DID...but I FAILED...When ''HE'' appear in front of me, all the efforts will suddenly collapsed. Therefore, I have to start from scratch. Honestly, I really tired...I really exhausted all about it!!! Please ask whether he has had such a feeling???

Pauline, Live out your LIFE

Good men are EXTINCT!!!

Seriously, if ur gf is angrying and off her cell phone without telling u...BOYS, how and wat would u do to get back their hearts???hmph!!!I know wat's the answer!!They may have no reaction and waiting for gals to calm down and find back them!!!Boys, u're wrong!!!Wat gals want is ur Caring and Consideration. Gals wan u to comfort her when she's sad rather than ignore her, until she feel good.
Undeniably, men total about face-saving. Don't u guys know tat gals always like playing ''PRINCESS temper''???!!!This is so-called the nature of woman. Let's said, if u really love and care bout her, once you know tat she's off her cell phone and can't contact her at all, you should be very nervous, and then tried to find out where's she???!!!
Rather than sitting there doing nothing, waiting for her ''gas consumption''-feel good and find back u! This way will certainly backfire u know?!
Even if she was really turned off her cell phone, you guys can also try to calls to her, and keep messaging her in order to let her be pleasantly surprised after on her cell phone...Let her know how much you care about and care for her...
Something as simple as it really that difficult to accomplish?
Nowadays, man is care about face-saving, admit defeat, self-esteem damned strong and thus will not yield easily...even if you were her girlfriend !!!

Disappointed in relationship!!!
Hate LOVE!!!

Question for Pauline cECILIA

Just came back from miri last night.
Tired and feeling exhausted...
The journey way back to Sibu from Miri,
It was the 2nd time Am sat alone inside the bus and listen to music through my cell phone...
It was damned damned cold inside the bus...
plus, the worst thing,
it was a rainy day...
Am almost became a SNOWGAL.
The lyrics with the melody let my emotions came...
Am kept thought and thought...
My mind constantly emerging previous things...
Only a QUESTION I would like to ask myself...
It will be : Am I still?
Am I still do stand ORIGIN???
Gosh...
It cannot be!!!
I should be look forward!!!
Rather than still miss to the PAST!!!
WHY???
Pauline,
U urself should know how much you were being hurt and how pain it will be!!!
It is not worth for u to think back and teardrop again and again!!!
I admit that Am a silly gal...
But the things come naturally...
Me myself cannot be avoided...

Sometimes,
Am thought of the 1st piece of fallen leaf...
Am felt damn regret coz of let IT go...
Why am I did not grasp it...
Now, it had been flying to the hands of others...

Sometimes,
Am miss the moment with the 2nd piece of fallen leaf...
Everything I did for IT is full with my LOVE HEART...
And I am willing to sacrifice for IT...
But wat I get from IT was HURT.

That's why!!!
Why am I still miss to the past!!!

Stupid Silly PAULINE!!!

领悟

当你在一段感情里所付出的只是换来悲伤，
一场爱情得来的只是心碎，
一个关心然而换来的只是沉默，
那你就得三思是否该继续走下去？
每段爱情都需要勇气。。。
每个悲伤都需要忘记。。。
因为爱情总是给彼此不断的喜怒哀乐。。。
如果付出的爱情换来的只是悲伤，
那我们为何还坚持抓着呢？
请你放手。
如果一段爱情换来的只是心碎，
那我们为何去承受这苦呢？
请你放下。
如果关心换来的只是沉默，
那我们为何不选择放手呢？
请先说分手。
每个人的心存着的不应该是寂寞而是快乐。
每段爱情都需要勇气来挑战。
一个人不能活在死亡的爱情，
是你的就是你的，别人抢也抢不走，
命中注定不是你的就不是你的，
强求也得不到幸福。
现在，
我终于领悟到了。=）

男人女人

男人永远都不明白女人的眼泪意味着什么。。。女人总是因为一点芝麻小事而躲在墙角洒泪。。。为什么？你们男人有试着去明白当中的“为什么”吗？
男人：我最讨厌女孩子哭了！！！
这句话是从我一个异性朋友说出。多么伤人的一句话。很多时候，女孩子是需要被呵护的。。。我们需要的是简单的关心，而不是浩大的关心。哪怕只是那么一个小小的交代，难道都很难达到吗？其实女人的要求很简单，只要男人爱她多一点，疼她多一点，关心她多一点，信息她多一点，甜言蜜语多一点，想她多一点。。。这么的一点点就足以让一个女人感到“幸福”。
虽然很多时候男人都答应会尽量去满足女人，但是，男人始终永远办不到。。。他们只会在一开始的时候去办到。。。日子久了，便开始慢慢忘记他们所答应的事情。
因为男人的冷落，女人便开始胡思乱想。。。男人总爱问为什么女人常常胡思乱想，想些不该想的东西，让自己累。。。你们以为我们想吗？！
此时此刻，我的心很痛。。。说不出那种“痛”的感觉。。。一句安慰的话都舍不得放出来。。。在爱情里你还是要站先锋吗？输和赢真的有那么重要吗？女人要的不是“输赢”。。。而是当伤心的时候，可以听到你的安慰。。。可是。。。“失望”收场。。。
有一点，女人非常清楚-当一个男人真正爱上一个女人的时候，他们是会愿意放下面子不顾一切地让那一个女人“快乐”
试问全天下的男人，你们都为“她”做到了吗？
=.= Empty hearT 0.o

考验

最近，心情不是异常的好。你们可以问为什么，但我一样不能给你们准确的答案。人们常常很轻易把‘考验’这个词挂在嘴边，却不知那真正的去向。。。以前，我觉得考验是种激励，它能让人从无奈，失败及失去中渐渐地成长。可是，当考验不断地降临的时候，才领悟到那所谓的透不过气。。。我乐意接受天主所赐下来的种种考验，我知道他有当中的意义。。。因为是人类，有时候我一样会埋怨为什么这样，为什么那样。。。‘距离’这个词在我的字典里是永远不可或缺的。。。很多人不明了，因为你们不是‘当事人’。如果可以，我也希望自己可以选择一个无距离的爱，而不是一个在东一个在西，难相见。但是，一旦我做了选择，那就是我所要。也许这就是我的固执点吧。。。
辛苦的等待=完美的成果。。。不要因为累而放弃眼前所要的，坚持着自己的理念与目标，前面的路不是一两天就可以走得完的，那是一辈子的旅程，这一直以来是我的坚持点。有两条路给我做选择，一条‘轻松’，另一条‘辛苦’，而我最后的选择便是一条辛苦的路途。。。不要问我为什么，那是无原因的选择。是，那是我自己做的选择，所以我必须去接受重重的‘考验’。。。
眼泪。。。可以为感动及开心而流，也可以因为伤心和思念而流。。。前几天，得知你或许会到汶莱去工作，顿时，我是没感觉。。。不是真的没感觉，而是逃避那滋味。。。很快，眼泪就从眼角流了出来，因为无奈，所以忍不住哭了出来。。。领悟到考验再次降临在我们之间。。。天主还会再赐给我们什么考验？？？未知数。。。过后，我的泪是为你感到开心而流。。。我不会阻止你的前途。。。我要你做你所想要的。。。所以，你开心就好。不过，我真的希望，你可以常常想起一个正等着你信息与关心的“她”。。。简单的交代，她就觉得贴心。。。不要疏忽她所要的点。。。

我的眼泪。。。

今天，像往常一样七点多就起床了。不知为何，心情很是不好。刷洗完毕，我就卧在床上发了封'早安'给他，然后就睡着了。大约七时四十五分，惠来叫醒我说准备该去上课了。老实说，真的没什么心情，思绪缭乱我的思想，压力把我拉得很紧很紧，我快透不过气了,我好累。

沿路去班上的途中，感觉很漫长，头脑里不知浮现了多少个画面，反反复复的一幕幕让我感觉想流泪。进到课室，开了电脑，看着电脑荧幕，发着呆，根本不知道此时此刻要做些什么，心不在焉。
也许是天助我也，上课上到一半，突然停电了，陆陆续续短了好几次电，所以我们就央求老师放我们走。。。我和惠就一起走去INTIMA Office做些功课，也许是因为太压力，透不过气，想太多不该想的，导致我眼泪流了出来，好在惠在我身边。。。哭过后，心情好多了。

过后，因为最近几天是INTIMA主席选举日，所以我们便抬着桌子到图书馆前面招人来投票。大约十一时多，我和惠便去食堂吃午餐。吃饱后，我们继续回到刚才的岗位看守以及招人来投票。不知怎么了，眼泪又不受控制地哗啦哗啦流了下来，像水坝一样不停地流。。。是我太想你吗？是我想太多吗？我也不清楚。。。在爱情里，女人总是细心的，无论什么芝麻小事，她都会看得很重，因此导致那刹那的崩溃。。。哭过后，一切都雨过天晴了。这就是原来的我。

Why???

Why do thgs have to change?why cant anythg stay the same...juz for a little while?why does God blow tis reckless,raging wind through my life and scatter evythg n evy1 around?=.="

Hate takes alot of Love

I kneel on the floor,
Tears falling from my eyes.
I have learnt to hate you,
Along with all your lies.

Then why do I still love you?
Why am i still here?
When you have broken me,
and still not shed a tear.

People say it’s plain to see,
People say its clear.
That if i just run away,
You would just disapear.

But nothing was ever simple,
There’s nothing clear to see.
I could never run away,
From what was once so dear to me.

I love you but i hate you,
Without you i’d be dead.
But you’ll be the death of me,
With all the things you’ve said.

I know this won’t make any sense,
You might misunderstand.
Please just never leave me,
I hope you’ll understand.