Last wish in 2009

Last wish in 2009, I pray to the Lord God to give me an independence of mind. Lord God, please give me STRENGTH! I need U so much! I hope that at this moment you touch my head and then tell me: ''my child, believe in yourself and you are OK, I look at you all the single time. You will always be my good gal=)))''♥
Last night I cried all night, causing my both eyes swollen this morning.
Why am I crying?
Because I feel Inferior!
I feel very Impotent!
Habitual reliance on friends, often don't make decisions for myself!
I HATE this kind of ME!!!
I WANT To CHANGE!!!
Change to the NEW Pauline cECILIA!!!
2010 is the new beginning for me!!!
NEW YEAR,
NEW LIFE,
NEW TARGET,
NEW BEGINNING,
NEW CHANGES...as well!!!

I went:'' Lord God, my heart is beating with U,
my soul is living in U,
my whole life is in U!''
I LOVE U!!!♥

Am the Child of God=)))