Sorry for the hibernation

Hey people here...Sorry for the hibernation.
I always remind myself to update here but ended up by my laziness... And I was too busy studying for my final...Despite I've been put so much efforts into it, but the result was not as smooth as I thought.Damn sucks!!!Especially Hotel Law!!! It took my best effort to prepare for it but it doesn't went well during the exam!!!That's the POINT!!!I was so disappointed toward my performance during the exam!!!"Innocent face" I want to get flying color for this subject-->A as I got the good results for my both TEST1 and TEST2!!!But now not even to think of to get an A, or perhaps might not pass!!!Sighed~~~There was another subject-->.Human Resource was not proceeds smoothly...The tips that he gave is more than out of our expectation yet just 50 percent there are going to be out!!!DAMNIT!!!I don't wanna FAIL!OKAY!!!
Yayy...Though it's holiday now, and it is the time, TIME to enjoy...to relax...No more endless notes to go through...no assignment for me to rush...Tat's so called FREEDOM after FINAL...but I was not the kind of excitement and totally don't have...I HATE final exam!!! It was showing that the time of our GRADUATION day is getting closer...Less than 8 months left of time, we are going to say sayonara to one another...Some of them might be further their degree studies, some of them might start their working life...Perhaps because of this, we will therefore become less contact or lost contact for those who further their studies in foreign country???A lot of sadness thus self-evident, but we still have to face them bravely.

Last night,(30th April 2010), I had been webcaming with Si hui as she was lonely in the hostel since ah hui was moving out from hostel to Pleasant Court yet I was having my 2 weeks holiday in my hometown...Tat's why I'm pity her loneliness...I really do, Si hui!!!And we were using oovoo instead of SKYPE to webcame...OOVOO really AWESOME!!!It can connect to 6 peoples to video chat on the same time yet speech clarity as in the scene chatting!!!I had my happy chat with her last night...After webcaming, it was 2.30am something..What on earth we were off to bed in the such early morning???People was in their half dreamland but both of us was just going to sleep soon.HAHA...Both panda will be born for the next day-->Pauline Panda and Si Hui Panda. Seriously BLACK EYE when I stand in front of the mirror and looking at my both eyes after bath in this morning!!!Gosh..It was so terrible...It was so shocked!!!

My second eldest brother has been sick for days, even my mum was having a fever yesterday! I was so damn worrying!!!When u only can see the suffering of others but couldn't do anything to reduce their suffer, it was feeling nasty...uncomfortable...painful in my heart as well!!!

Sometimes, I really do hope I can stay back to the childhood time like my niece and nephew them as they can play whenever they want, they can rely on people when they need help, they are stress free, they live happily without any problems bothering their minds...they are just like angels living in their perfect world.

Dad,
Do you know how much I love you? Maybe you never knew how much I love you just like mum never knows how much I love her.
Dad, you're the most important guy in my life and nobody can ever replace you in my heart even my future permanent partner.
I am kind don't know how to express my love to you and mum, I always keep those feeling down instead of showing out to you and mum.
Dad, I felt so useless when I see you suffering and working so hard for this family without taking care of ur own health, and yet I can do nothing for you.
Dad, please take good care of urself when I am away to kuching, don't keep me worrying as always okay?
爸爸，答应我不要那么拼命了好吗？
自己的身体健康要顾及，
不要凡是都为了我们因而忽略了自己的健康。
这不是我们想要的。
你的卖力让我心痛，
眼泪会不自觉地流下来。
爸爸，
我。。。
已好久没有好好地看你了，
已好久没有好好地跟你说说话了，
你一年比一年地老了，
我也一年比一年地成熟了，
从你眼中的小女儿变成了现在的大女儿,
谢谢你的养育之恩，爸爸。
爸爸，我爱你！（希望有一天可以亲口对你说出这三个字）

Mum,
thanks for all the care and l'm lucky enough to have you in my life. I admit that I am not a good daughter who always make you sad and disappointed. Mum, I felt so guilty and sorry for every time my attitude and words toward you while we were arguing. But one thing for sure that my love for you is never less. I love YOU, mum.
Mum, I'm not good in showing the "LOVE" to you and dad. But it doesn't mean that I don't love you. You are the only mum for three of us >Denis-Eldest son, David-2nd son and Pauline(me)-Youngest. We love u as always!
Mum, do take good care of urself when we are not beside you.
我爱你，妈妈！

Beloved daughter, Pauline cECILIA