Wednesday, March 24, 2010

I'm waiting for the day when i learn to let go.♥

I couldn't handle this anymore....I hate this feeling.
I had enough to face this all again and again!!!
Today, we were coincidence met each other at "The Spring"...
It's such a S*cks!!!
Am totally mentally broke down!!!
I've no mood for that moment except crying...
But can't show out!!!
Am aching inside.
We were looking at each other...
When I see you smile and I know that its not for me..
Ur smile had proved it to me that u have ur better life then.
How bout me?
Still step in the ORIGIN?
Can't I just ignore YOU and all the PAST???!!!
I just wanna have a peaceful life.
I'm such a useless gal that always keep all the suffer to myself.
My tears can't stop rolling out my sorrowful eyes.
I admitted that am such a loser yet stupid!(Forgive me for saying that, God)
I thought I'm getting stronger than before, but after the incident this noon, I found myself really so weak. No one understand how I felt inside, included u.
I tried not to think of u since I yet blocked all the ways that can get ur news.
I just want a simple life that is without u.
Why ur face still lingering in my mind every time?
All the hard work I've done was destroyed!!!
Boy, I don't know whether u will see this post or not,
I just wanna vent out what I felt inside.
I've lost my way!
Who am I?
Memories kill me badly!!!
Such a big challenge for me to keep them in front of me, it kept reminds me and spoils my mood every single time when I saw them.
Honestly, I miss u so much even though u are the one who hurt me so deep.
But, we were not meant to be.
I like this song. Listen it and u can feel what I felt.
I don't know how to post the video here.
So, I just post the lyric here.

郭靜 - 心牆


一個人 眺望碧海和藍天
在心裏面 那抹灰就淡一些
海豚從眼前飛越 我看見了最陽光的笑臉
好時光都該被寶貝 因爲有限
我學著不去擔心得太遠
不計劃太多反而能勇敢冒險 豐富的過每一天快樂的看每一天 Wooh~
第一次遇見陰天遮住妳側臉
有什麽故事好想了解
我感覺我懂妳的特別
妳的心有一道牆 但我發現一扇窗
偶爾透出一絲暖暖的微光
就算妳有一道牆 我的愛會攀上窗台盛放
打開窗妳會看到悲傷融化...


I miss you more than you'll ever know♥

Wednesday, March 17, 2010

God, please forgive me

God, please forgive me. Will u give me a chance to start my new life? Am regret for did not taking good care of my health. Now, it's getting worst and worst. Am just 20th years old but my health condition is SU*KS. Am feeling sad and guilty. Now, am feeling tired as a folk. I've lot of things need to go through, but I've totally don't hv energy to complete them. My mind is blank.=='' Assignment and Test2 is waiting for me to go through.
God, please forgive me.
Give me a chance.:(
Give me strength.
I need U, God.


God, please forgive me.:(

Friday, February 26, 2010

26th Feb 2010 *It just RM19 for 6hrs*♥

Unforgettable day in my life.
I had a great day with Sally Jong, Kristy Tang and Elisa. We sing sang song in Karaoke which is located at ''The Spring"and we yet received good service from them.HAHAHA!!
Guess What???!!!
We were so lucky today as we had 3 hours free for singing and beverage for drinking as well that provided by them.
WHY?
Why we had such BEST service???
HAHAHA!!!:D
We would like to thanks to the lousy systems of the Room36.
As we told them that we were 1st time been here but we've met such a bad condition in the KBOX room.
Maybe because of this reason, their manager was feeling guilty though~~~
Therefore, he did as what I've mentioned above!!! HAHAHA!!!:D
He was a such kindness gentlement I ever met in my life♥...HAHA
And...And...And...
And the point is we juz spent RM19 for 6hrs...:D.
♥
1st round*
Snack and beverage...:D
♥

Sing sang song :D
♥

Both of us seems so happy=)
♥

:D
♥

Elisa was singing...
♥
Kristy ♥
yoyoyo!
Peace^^

Sally ♥
:D

My turn ♥

Elisa!!!
Acting cute again...

2nd round*
Free beverages that provided by manager^^
♥hugs♥

Ended up by 8pm ♥
KBOX,
We will be back soon :)

RM19 for 6hrs...

Wednesday, February 24, 2010

Wanna Cry...(FATS)

Don't know how to descibe my feeling now...
Frustrated...
Speechless...
Am still missing something...
I know I shouldn't...
But who can control the feeling that come naturally...
NOBODY!
Honestly, I can't totally show and vent out all my feeling here...
Am feeling so sad...
I wanna cry...
I need a shoulder to lean on right now...
JESUS, I know u're beside me right now...
Please take me out from the sadness...

Am gained so much fat since I didn't control my meals and kept on eating...
That's the result=FATS!!!
I HATE it u know!!!
I HATE FATS!!!
My tummy was coming out to see me...
My whole body was KEMBANG!!!
So upset u know!!!
I need solution to deduct my excess fats!!!
Start from March,
I will totally follow my Slimming Schedule that has been created by my own!!!
Hope it will be succeed for this time!!!

FATS!!!

Thursday, February 11, 2010

Happy Chinese New Year (Short Update)

Happy Chinese New Year to all the Bloggers!!!
Sorry for the late update...
Am supposed to update it everyday...
But I did not...
Ouch...
because of my laziness...
Gonna leaving here*Kuching* to Bintangor for the Chinese New Year on tomorrow...
Can't wait to see my papa and mama since the school resume 2010 almost one month+...
LoLz...
This year Eve Dinner will be celebrated at my Eldest brother house since he yet move to the new house last year December. :D
The dinner will be different though~^^
hmm...
kinda tired tonight,
so...
just have a short update...
Have to stop now...
and off to bed before 12am...
Goodnight Boys and Gals...
muackssssssss...
:)


*Gong Xi Fa Chai*
(Short Update)

Saturday, January 9, 2010

Do you???Am I???

Do you see me?
Do you still looking for me?
LOLz...XD
Undeniably, sometimes am still will looking for you...
No reason...
It came naturally...
1st Jan 2010, you've been sent me a greeting message ''Happy new year^^'' with 0168825067. Originally, am comfused who sent me the greeting message...therefore I replied back''Happy new year to u too, btw, may I know who are you?'' to u. After I sent, I froze a few seconds...Ochhh...Its U! No wonder that 10 digits was so familiar to me.
Because I've been deleted ur both contact numbers since we're broke up in order to let me to forget you as soon as possible, but can't be deny the fact, the numeral already engraved in my mind since the day we've been together. I've tried hardly to erased both of ur contact numbers from my mind, and I did not deliberately to remember these numeral but what I get is???
I still can remember your both contact numbers.
I want to know whether ur life is doing fine over there?
But I choose to hide... I've to control myself!
I don't even want to send you any message since I yet promised that I will never find you again, coz I don't want to get hurt once again.
Sometimes am still will missing the past...
And yet miss the moment we've been together.
In the past memories, you gave me enough ups and downs...
From LOVE to HATE and to the END...
Thats the sad ENDING!
We're have no future even we yet tried 4 times...
Arghhhh!!!!
Pauline cECILIA is getting crazy now...
LOLz...
She's still write such silly things in her blogger???
Lord God, please blessed me DON'T!!!
Have to stop now...
Goodnight boys and gals.
Have a good good nights.
Muackzzz...♥



Tuesday, January 5, 2010

Time Flies...

Oochh...
It's already Semester 5 since the 1st day I entered to this College.
I still remember,
it was a Saturday morning, it's rainy day, my cousin brought me to Inti College for the first Semester enrollment. *Excitement*, after all, coz this was my 1st time living life without parents. After enrollment, we went to buy some daily necessities for my ''Hostel Life''. *Lot of things*
The 1st day of my 1st Semester, I walked alone in this school, and constantly looking for my classroom in such a big College (actually it's not such BIG^^)without any familiar faces, my heart was beating fast, unfamiliar faces all around the school. x(
I'm trying to ask ppl around the school see whether they know where my classroom located. And my mind constantly pray to God to blessed me can met the person who take the same course and same subject with me right now...
Finally, one of my senior brought me to the classroom...*perhaps he is an angel sent by God?heee^^*
Time flies~~~
It's has been a year and 3 months I further my studies in this College and still continueing now...
So that extent,
I still left more than a year here to further my studies.
Although it's not a very perfect, good, nice and excellent College, but it's not bad as well. And I really appreciated what I had get from this College. Expecially *Friendship*. I've met lot of friends here, both local and foreign friends. I really treasure a *friendship* with them.♥hugs♥
Imagine the day of our graduation day for diploma, am sure that I will cry badly on that day! Coz I really love u guys so much...After graduation, it's hardly for us to be gathered as usual we hv now...
Therefore, we must cherish the moment we have now.