My rarely 1st Time ♥

Owh...It's Friday today!!!
I never realize that time went so FAST so do YOU?!
Time Flies~
Well, 24 hours is so NOT enough for me.
After a week more, I have to go back to Kuching to further my studies in new semester!!!
School life is so tired yet fun! I just HATE exam and assignment every time!!! Roarrr. And next semester is a short semester, gosh!!! it will be a busy yet tired semester for SURE!

Guess what!!!
Me and my family will be going to Bintulu on tomorrow morning!
Woohoo!!!Going to c my both lovely niece - Faustina and nephew - Kevin!!! Miss them so damn muchhhhh!!! They are just so AWESOME! We LOVE them so damn much!!!

Here they are:
Faustina and my mum and also she so-called grandma(ah ma).:D

Here Kevin and my mum and also he so-called grandma(ah ma):D

Isn't they adorable?
We LOVE them!

Yayyy...Because of I rarely came back this holiday, so after I discussed with my eldest brother, we would like to take this chance to celebrate these both Mother's and Father's Day in Bintulu.

Oh well, lets show u guys some pictures of my both Mother's and Father's Day card that I am going to present "them" on tomorrow~
Just For my DAD♥ Here comes to the content that I've been wrote down inside the card.(:
Just for my MUM♥

Here comes to the content that I've been wrote down inside the card.(:

This can be regarded as my *First Time* to write down my sincere words in a card and give to my dad and mum.
I ever did to my lover, I ever did to my friends, but never did for my parents.
So, this is my rarely First Time!*Clapping*
(:♥:)

Alright, this post is going to an END!
C ya readers.
I'll be back soon if I'm not lazy^^
Toodles~

Love Pauline cECILIA♥

Sorry for the hibernation

Hey people here...Sorry for the hibernation.
I always remind myself to update here but ended up by my laziness... And I was too busy studying for my final...Despite I've been put so much efforts into it, but the result was not as smooth as I thought.Damn sucks!!!Especially Hotel Law!!! It took my best effort to prepare for it but it doesn't went well during the exam!!!That's the POINT!!!I was so disappointed toward my performance during the exam!!!"Innocent face" I want to get flying color for this subject-->A as I got the good results for my both TEST1 and TEST2!!!But now not even to think of to get an A, or perhaps might not pass!!!Sighed~~~There was another subject-->.Human Resource was not proceeds smoothly...The tips that he gave is more than out of our expectation yet just 50 percent there are going to be out!!!DAMNIT!!!I don't wanna FAIL!OKAY!!!
Yayy...Though it's holiday now, and it is the time, TIME to enjoy...to relax...No more endless notes to go through...no assignment for me to rush...Tat's so called FREEDOM after FINAL...but I was not the kind of excitement and totally don't have...I HATE final exam!!! It was showing that the time of our GRADUATION day is getting closer...Less than 8 months left of time, we are going to say sayonara to one another...Some of them might be further their degree studies, some of them might start their working life...Perhaps because of this, we will therefore become less contact or lost contact for those who further their studies in foreign country???A lot of sadness thus self-evident, but we still have to face them bravely.

Last night,(30th April 2010), I had been webcaming with Si hui as she was lonely in the hostel since ah hui was moving out from hostel to Pleasant Court yet I was having my 2 weeks holiday in my hometown...Tat's why I'm pity her loneliness...I really do, Si hui!!!And we were using oovoo instead of SKYPE to webcame...OOVOO really AWESOME!!!It can connect to 6 peoples to video chat on the same time yet speech clarity as in the scene chatting!!!I had my happy chat with her last night...After webcaming, it was 2.30am something..What on earth we were off to bed in the such early morning???People was in their half dreamland but both of us was just going to sleep soon.HAHA...Both panda will be born for the next day-->Pauline Panda and Si Hui Panda. Seriously BLACK EYE when I stand in front of the mirror and looking at my both eyes after bath in this morning!!!Gosh..It was so terrible...It was so shocked!!!

My second eldest brother has been sick for days, even my mum was having a fever yesterday! I was so damn worrying!!!When u only can see the suffering of others but couldn't do anything to reduce their suffer, it was feeling nasty...uncomfortable...painful in my heart as well!!!

Sometimes, I really do hope I can stay back to the childhood time like my niece and nephew them as they can play whenever they want, they can rely on people when they need help, they are stress free, they live happily without any problems bothering their minds...they are just like angels living in their perfect world.

Dad,
Do you know how much I love you? Maybe you never knew how much I love you just like mum never knows how much I love her.
Dad, you're the most important guy in my life and nobody can ever replace you in my heart even my future permanent partner.
I am kind don't know how to express my love to you and mum, I always keep those feeling down instead of showing out to you and mum.
Dad, I felt so useless when I see you suffering and working so hard for this family without taking care of ur own health, and yet I can do nothing for you.
Dad, please take good care of urself when I am away to kuching, don't keep me worrying as always okay?
爸爸，答应我不要那么拼命了好吗？
自己的身体健康要顾及，
不要凡是都为了我们因而忽略了自己的健康。
这不是我们想要的。
你的卖力让我心痛，
眼泪会不自觉地流下来。
爸爸，
我。。。
已好久没有好好地看你了，
已好久没有好好地跟你说说话了，
你一年比一年地老了，
我也一年比一年地成熟了，
从你眼中的小女儿变成了现在的大女儿,
谢谢你的养育之恩，爸爸。
爸爸，我爱你！（希望有一天可以亲口对你说出这三个字）

Mum,
thanks for all the care and l'm lucky enough to have you in my life. I admit that I am not a good daughter who always make you sad and disappointed. Mum, I felt so guilty and sorry for every time my attitude and words toward you while we were arguing. But one thing for sure that my love for you is never less. I love YOU, mum.
Mum, I'm not good in showing the "LOVE" to you and dad. But it doesn't mean that I don't love you. You are the only mum for three of us >Denis-Eldest son, David-2nd son and Pauline(me)-Youngest. We love u as always!
Mum, do take good care of urself when we are not beside you.
我爱你，妈妈！

Beloved daughter, Pauline cECILIA

Short Updated(Answer from God)♥

Well, lets get u guys a short update!

Thanks God.
You did answer my question.
U let me found out HIS footprint.
And...
I am trying to treat HIM as a normal friend but not more than that.
That is what I should do now!
Is the time to stand out and face it but not kept on hiding!
Yay, God, I still need ur guidance and pls stay with me whenever my heart is shaken...
Thanks God!


That's all for tonight readers.
Off to bed now~
Tata!
Nitez~~~

We are friends FOREVER!

Ur Message

Click PLAY then u will know how I FELT in my daily life
........
..........
Tonight,
I've been received ur message"Hi how are u?"
Honestly,
I was so shocked yet nervous...
And actually I plan to reply u as ur face kept lingering in my mind this few weeks ...
But,
finally I have been stopped by my friend to do so...
Maybe they are true...
Don't know how to describe my feeling at this moment...
Can u feel what I felt?
Nahhh...
I am doing not so fine...
but I have to try my best to live out my life...


How bout u?

Pauline cECILIA's feeling

男孩-boy

To: boy

我真的不知道怎么隐藏对你那一丝的牵挂，
我很努力地不去想你，
我很努力地过着没有你的生活，
努力地把过去我和你的一切从记忆里抹去。
可是，
为什么，
依旧踏在原点？
男孩，
我真的想你了。
不在乎你看不看得到，
只想透过部落格来发泄自己的情绪，
没有勇气跟朋友诉说依旧想着你，
因为不想让他们失望与担心。
我努力掩饰对你的思念，
知道自己很傻，
却无法控制自己不去做傻事。

已好久没有你的消息了，
好几次，
我试着找你的足迹,
可是，
你到底在哪里？

很累了。。。
真的很累了。。。
身体不舒服，
想吐。。。
体温在上升。。。):

From gal

Cashless...

Guess WHAT!!!???

Indian cuisine still lingering in my mind until now...Lets tell u what was happening...
1pm, me and Si hui went to Boulevard by Inti bus...It was a HOT afternoon!!!Damn HOT!!!

After reached there, we straight walked to the Food Court and ordered for our LUNCH!!! We ordered Indian cuisine since I yet told Si hui last night that today we are going to eat Indian food!!!Aha...Some pictures have been captured by me as below:

This was what I ate for my lunch yet solving my dinner for tonight.
2 Chicken meat, 1 Preserved egg, and some vegetables.Cost me RM10...^^
FULL!!!..>.<

This was Si Hui's Lunch!!!
2 Chicken meat, some Bitter guard and some "羊角豆"(Don't know it call wat in english..hehe^^) Cost her RM10 as well...^^

Before started to consume our lunch, we've been captured some pictures here^^

Si Hui was happy with her Indian Lunch^^
Say "Peace"(:

Erm...Am I noob in this picture?LOL..Whatever la...HAHA....xD

Finished it with the fullest stomach!!!>.<

Both of us was fullest of food!!!Damn Damn Damn fulled!!! We were just ate a plate of lunch but seems we ate VERY loads of FOOD!!!HAHA!!! Sure we were gaining at least 1kg after this..

Lunch time was OVER!!!
Come to the Shopping TIME!!!^^
We were going to grab some necessity stuffs such as snacks, biscuits, shampoo...bla bla bla...teeheee^^

These are my harvest for today!!!HAHAHA!!!Let me tel u what I bought for today...(:

It was taking me so long time for only to choose what FRUIT I would like to buy...
Honestly, it was not much choices over there...haih...*Innocent face*
And I still have RED apple in my hostel...
Finally...
it was GRAPE!!!(:

>>>>>
>>>>>>
>>>>>>>
Now, I'm going to intro>>>> my BEST buddies
They are the one who is taking away my STRESS!!!
I need them during the EXAM periods!!!
They are giving me the motivation to do revision during exam times!!!
Who they are between?
TADA!!!!

Here they are!!!
SNACKS!!!JUNKS!!!

Love them much much much!!!
(:
Not much for this time...
Coz Semester break is nearly coming soon...
^^

Then...>>>Come to the Healthy stuffs^^
Here they are>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>

Vitamin C
Mix Vegetable and Fruit Juice
Healthy drinks for my breakfast^^

Reason to buy this???
My Shampoo is going to EMPTY...
So...
I have to buy...
>>>Shampoo^^

After this, we were going to have our Window Shopping in order to deduct some fats since we were very loads of foods yet the time was still early.^^

This nice stocking below was that I am finding for so long time ago...
Today, I bought it at Boulevard!!!
HAHA...♥

And this nice Formal Outfit below was that Si Hui has been bought for her Presentation in the future time^^
Nice Outfit (:
OL^^

After that, we off to Popular bookstore
Again!!!>>>Cecilia Ahern!!!
This is the 2nd book that I bought by the same writer after the "P/S I Love You"^^
"Thanks For The Memories"
The title of this book was just so suit my feeling now...
And the book title was just so attracted me!!!
So, I bought it!!!

Si hui bought several files from Popular bookstore...

Guess wat??? We had coincidence met Ah hui and Elisa there.^^

Here is Ah hui who is showing her lunch at Food court^^
Just cost her RM5^^
Next time I gonna to try this^^

Here is Elisa and she is showing her French Fries^^
Cost her RM3.50^^

Because of the Indian food,(too much achinomoto)
both of us(me and Si hui) was seriously having water shortage...
Therefore, Si hui has been ordered a bowl of ice-blended^^
Thanks Si hui for the sharing^^

We went back to Inti College around 4pm...
And I am having big trouble for today >>> CASHLESS!!!

P/S: I have been broke my promise as I did not attending for the Easter mass service today. ):

My BIG FAULT and BIG BAD!!!

That's all for today!!!
Tata
LOVE Pauline cECILIA!!!♥

Get u UPDATED!!!♥

Hey readers, am back. Sory for waiting...Lets get u updated.

2 April 2010(Friday)

Yesterday was a Good Friday. I was spending this day in fasting. I had attending the mass service in the evening which was 5pm mass with Elisa...It was full of ppl there...there was no more seat for us as we were late been there...Therefore, we were standing there from the beginning of service until the end of service. That's why we should be reached there 1hr before ma...but for me its okay la...tis was the chance for us to do some penance... But the problem is...>>>Sleepy was kept on attacking me while the service was in progress...argh...In order not to let me myself fall asleep, I had got an idea!!!>>> I kept on squeezing my hand, to let the pain make me awake!!!(Don't try this) it will caused u....>>>>picture as below

Remember don't try to abuse urself as me ya...^^

The mass service was ended by 6.45pm...

we were having our dinner in JOJO chinese restaurant which was my 1st time been there. I was ordered the laksa kosong which is not really good in taste as the laksa soup was curry soup, but not the original laksa soup.>.<>TAKA and bought some desserts...I bought 4 muffins which was 3 in chocolate flavor and 1 in blueberry flavor. I bought for Ah hui and Si hui as there are my sisters in the same room^^

Night time>>>My tears was rolling out non-stop!!!

"Mari and 3 doggies"

Before u going to click PLAY, pls do prepare ur TISSUE...

This was a real story from Japan. I watched this short video since last year. Undeniably, my tears was rolling out while watching this video clip. It's damn touching.

Last night, I watched the complete movie through TuDou.

I cried hysterically...

Non-stop of my tears!!!>>>Cause me a pair of sWollEn eyes.==

I freaking like this movie!!! Go and watch it, then u can feel how I felt.

3 April 2010(Saturday)

Today, woke up by 7.15am, then straight went to bath. After well prepared, me and ah hui were walking to Mary Yek hall for the registration of Team Building today. Here is the some picture from my catches >>>

The main purpose for this Team Building was to find out who have the potential among the Jan and March intakes students to join the INTIMA for the next badge.But, honestly there was not much from my catch...Same to others INTIMA committee... It was a tiring day....but we had lotsa fun as well...

hmm...

Tonight, I had my simple dinner with 1 egg and 2 biscuit gave from Si Hui as I really don't felt hungry. But, tonight, I ate quite alot chocolate...dunno y...scared to gain weight after consume lotsa chocolate...haiz...

Tonight was a boring night...Ah hui was going out with Elisa and she will stay at her boyfriend house as usual...Si hui and me jus sitting in front of our own laptop...>>"ACER" & "VAIO"...we were looking at the screen....surfing here and there....I was blogging here...Facebook-inG as well...wat a boring night...line was effing su*ks, thats y I can't watch any movie through TuDou...sigh~~~

Tomorrow we plan to go to Boulevard by INTI Bus which is free as always....aha...:)..We are going to have some shop...Oh well...I plan to buy some snacks such as BISCUIT which is I like the MOST!!!teeheee...and grab some fruits as well...I like FRUIT as well...hmm...tomorrow will caused me cashless though~~~hopefully I can back to INTI before 5pm as I already promised Elisa that this Sunday will attend the Easter mass with her...I should not break the promise.

Okay la...Stop my writing here tonight~~~

^^

LOVE Pauline cECILIA